Wednesday, August 15, 2012
I feel like I have to repeat this over and over in my mind. This journey is not a sprint and I don't think I want it to be. I know in the past I have wished that I could just wake up with the body of my dreams - but I think I would miss out on a lot of important life lessons along the way if that happened.
I used to believe that losing weight would make me more outgoing - but guess what without losing an ounce I started becoming more involved in the community and became more outgoing. The weight loss may help my energy level and increase the amount of activities I can participate in, but it will not magically make me more outgoing.
I used to believe that if I were thin, I would want to exercise more and magically become more active - but if I lost the weight without exercise, why would I suddenly want to start? I am learning to like exercise now - because of how it makes me feel and what it does for my body - I honestly believe that a "magically thin me" would be just as lazy as the overweight me if exercise were not required to lose the weight.
I am learning to embrace the fact that this is an important journey and that along the way I may learn to love healthy eating, enjoy perhaps even crave exercise, become more active and outgoing but these are "side effects of the journey" not of the weight loss itself. Without the journey only the outside would change and that is not the change I want . . . I want the confidence, positive self-image, and compassion for others that comes through pressing through the hard times.
I may need to be reminded of this later - but for now I am trying to embrace the journey!