Wednesday, August 15, 2012
Yesterday I said I was going to get exercise in through out the day and workout with the personal trainer. It didn't work out that way. My son interrupted me after 20 minutes, I did manage to get a 30 minute walk at lunch but I was so tired after work, I called in sick with the personal trainer and ended up walking on the treadmill for 30 minutes and calling it an early night.
I had a bit of a binge eat and ate a 6" tuna sub and ended up eating my son's 6" meatball sub as he wasn't hungry. I need to plan ahead today for that evening before dinner munch so I don't do that again.
I'm still a bit stressed out about my ex-bf contacting me yesterday. I don't understand men. What part of Don't Contact Me Ever Again didn't he understand. I ended up texting back a really nasty message to him (not at all what I would normally say) to purposely hurt him and make he realize I really do not want anything to do with him or introduce him back into my son's life.
I did not burn the bridge, I put dynamite under, on and around it and blew it up. So, now I am still upset that I had to do that. He called me a psycho. Yep, I would call me a psycho too but if acting like a psycho will get him out of my life, then so be it. Meet psycho bitch. As a mom, I am starting to realize to what extremes I will go to protect my son and myself.
I am also very very very thankful for everything I have and all of my friends and family who are so wonderfully supportive of me. It also made me realize I have too much stuff, so I spent last night starting to purge my house of it. I have a long way to go.
Weight: Up 6 oz. That's the binge still in my stomach.
Today's goal. Weights and walkies.
1) Morning treadmill
2) Lunch walk
3) Evening walk or treadmill.
4) Upper body weights.
5) Pack an extra afternoon snack to eat before dinner so I don't binge again.
We'll have to see if I can do the walks. I just stepped away from the computer and when I sat down, I fell a sharp pain my right knee. I think I just pulled my muscles around my knee cap. Wow, I'm old. So, walks may be out today.
Hey look, first light. Wow, I get up to early. Have a fabulous day.