Oh August... how did you get here?
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
Well I managed to maintain my weight but I havent dropped any. I have decided to not look at my scale for a while. I swear that thing lies to me. I went from 181 one day... to 189. No idea how that happened. Is it even possible to gain 8 lbs in a day?! I dont know but I am so ridiculously unhappy about it.
But I am aiming to be more positive. I set a few small goals for myself to help with debt a few months ago and its working. Slowly but surely getting my debt down and my life back. I guess I should look at my weight like that. It may not be Leaps and Bounds but millimeter by millimeter. And those can equal inches, feet, yards, miles if I let them keep going. I have always been an "All or Nothing" person. If I cant have it all, I dont want anything. Maybe thats a horrible way of thinking. I can feel that negative thought. :/ I am not "happy" unless I am punishing myself for something, I should stop that...
Brighter side, I have invested the 8 dollars every 2 weeks to buy Poland Spring sports cap water bottles from Sams Club. I like having them just around the house cause then I can drink til my heart's content. Anyone else ever feel more thirsty after they drink water? Sometimes I think its made to make me drink more.
So one more episode of the Nanny in my room and then out to the living room to do at least 10 minutes on the treadmill and watch Charmed.
The act of putting on my sneakers some days feels like a punishment. I really need a new way of thinking about this.... Help?