Tuesday, August 14, 2012
Ok.. before I start.. anyone who read my last blog, I blame the tears for the misspelling... sorry :)
Also... a deep heartfelt thank you.. it was like you all showed up just when I need the support of friends without judgement who understood... if comments were internet versions of hugs.... I felt the love... and I thank you deeply.
OK- so a recap of the new system. I was going to shoot for 1700 cal's but I think since weekend are a little "cheating session" for me normally I am going to shoot for 1,500. This appears based on a comparision of tracking from the old to this way.. an increase of anywhere from 200-600 calories per day and more likely right about in the middle.
Based on what I learned in class over the weekend and online calculators to maintain at 184.5 I need just a little over 2,000 calories per day. But because I'd still like to reach my goal and I an nervous about jumping full force into more food... I'm going to use 1,500 plan.
Then based on what I found online and the class I should be eating the following-
150 grams of carbs
113 grams of protein
50 grams of fat
Today I came in at:
1313 calories (short by 187)
163 grams of carbs (13 over)
103 grams of protein (short by 10)
34.5 grams of fat (good fat) and (short by 15.5)
So it looks like I need to add a little good at back into my diet- I went fat free or low fat with everything and from what I read online not enough fat can also cause hair issues... and total is actualy a very high day in fat, based on my old tracking books.
Obviously I also need to get some more calories in as well without going over the carbs. this will be tricky I think.
I am also going to shoot for 8 hours a sleep
Re-dedicate myself to 10 minutes of meditation
Get the book recommended by my sparkfriend
Take my multivitamin more regularly
Increase my Biotin by one more (total of 2 per day) the safest amount allowed.
Look into getting an extra vitamin for just selenium and folic acid which both appear to be helpful for hair and do not have 100% daily value in my current multi-vitamin
Research how much my zumba and walking take out of my body and if I need to account for more calories on the days I do cardio.
And I guess for a kick in head of what really matters in life... today my friend at work was in tears because her husband needs a liver transplant, but in the process of getting him on the list, the found something in his brain... they went for a biopsy consult but the dr. took them in right away for surgery... 5 hours later a mass that covered one entire side of his skull and started forming under the brain that they thought was cancer...and thus making him unable t get a transplant.. was an infection that perhaps had been there for eons.... it was pressing on the brain barrier and when they went in they have to pretty make make a puzzle out of his skull, remove it all, but the head and brain back together and test to make sure it was not cancer... there my firend was down right joyful and filled with emotions when they said it was just infection and formed a mass, non cancerous... and yet here she and her husband are.. just happy to get that news eventhough the battle ahead is bitter and long and he now sits with massive pain, a whole in his head, a skull in need of remodling, the man just had major brain surgery and she was giddy... talk about looking I the bright side... I want to have that presence of mind and heart....
I cried with her today (after she left the room, trying to be strong and happy) but secretly some of it was because I felt while of course losing my hair is tramatic for me... this is nothing compared to the cruel paths a life can take and be tested... and so I am forever greatful he is okay... and I have sparkfriends... and in the end... life is something much more than what we see...
it is deeper... and yes surface stuff can play a role... but as my partner who is often not lovey dovey or even midly and introspective thinker... said to me... honey you are more than your hair.
wow... just when I thought my days lessons were learned... she comes up with that gem, not that I didn't kow that already somewhere deep down, under the fear and shock... ut coming from her.. this thought... this concern that I know I am more than my hair... that I am so much more valuable.... just me... was really a teary conversation... she has never been so kind or thoughtful in her speech and after 7 years of being together... today was the perfect day to suprise me with that type of thought...
I suppose in true sparklepie fashion I must now make a joke... or off handed funny to end this day of lessions and tears so here goes... on the bright side if I lose all my hair and have to wear a wig I think I totally earn the right to weight myself without the wig...!! No hair is like an instant 1 pound lost. :)
ok, perhaps that was not the best joke, but hey... as my granny says, sometimes life gives you no choice but to laugh and move on... never fear there will always be another happy day and sad day right around the corner... so you might as well laugh.