Monday, August 13, 2012
I have fallen and I cannot seem to pick myself UP and just do IT.
I have been fighting myself and right now I do not want to exercise! Eating right - that is never an issue for me! However, the last two weeks - hubby got ice cream for his night time snack - I do NOT have a dish every night - but have had a few... not bad right?! wrong!
I do NOT DO ice cream - why? phosphorus... dairy... high calorie... umm other health issues -
then twice I have been cajoled into going out to eat when I really really did not want to... stuck to my eating options - but had terrible meals - one I did not finish the other - the other, well I tend to bring home half.. I ate the whole thing. For dinner to compensate I ate a lighter meal.
I cannot seem to motivated myself to get back in the pool - I have only gone one day since being home from Cali. I run to mom and dad's now - obviously MORE now that they live up town... I have set boundaries but they seem to fly OUT the window because they need this or THAT and no one else will come. I feel bad! Then I do not feel bad. then I feel bad about not feeling bad. I remind everyone I am ONE person and that there are technically FIVE others to help.
I am trusting God to help me resolve other consequences from my break-down of relationships from the Cali visit. Trial by fire - I just keep walking by faith!
I want to get back on track - I need to get back on track! My mind and my body is exhausted! I am tired! But I know once I start - I will feel more energy and I will feel revived and I will feel like moving!
Thanks for stopping by and reading my RANT.
God Bless you!