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This is NOT a Joke!

Monday, August 13, 2012

This is MY LIFE!

I keep starting and stopping. When I stop I completely fall off the healthy lifestyle. Yes, this last pause I was able to pull off a Sprint Triathalon but truly, as long as you feel comfortable in the water, I think Anyone could do a Sprint Tri. I'm proud that I did it, glad to know I could do it but knowing how little I trained for it (from April on) it's really doable for all.

Sometimes I go through times that I JUST DON'T CARE about my health. Surprisingly I've cared more about my Peanut M&M's, my Mexican restaurants, my carb cravings being fulfilled with salty chips and white breat and my sugar (anything SWEET!)

When will I finally put ME first?! Not just mysefl first so I can have a few minutes to read. Not just me first so I can take a nap. Not just me first so I can take a stroll in the neighborhood and get some fresh air. When will I finally put ME first so I do NOT die?!!!

I have to stop this back and forth. I have to stop making the commitment to myself for only a two month period only to run quickly back to my friend (?) the Two Pound bag of Peanut M&M's.

The Sprint Triathalon was a good wake up call for me. Not only did I realize I was NO WHERE near where I had planned to be when I first contemplated the Tri back in January. (goal was 250. Instead of weighing that I had put back on most of my weight and did the Tri at 299.2). But seeing all these amazing fit women motivated me. One lady lapped me 4 times! Crazy! Several ladies did the swim in 8 min and did the 5k in 27 minutes (remember to throw in the bike portion in between the two)

These past few months I've been seeing a counselor. Someone to help me through life. Help me have a better marriage, steer my children better and how to be a better stronger me. My user name, Overhauling-Me, represents how I've felt for so long. It's just not a weight loss I'm looking for I'm aching for an all over wellness. I want to be physically healthy, spiritually healthy, mentally healthy and be a better organized, time manager mom/wife/ME.

I watched Extreme Makeover: Weight Loss Edition last night. This episode hit home. She is the same age as me (45) and was fit at 23 (at 23 I was 170. Since I'm 6'0" that was a perfect weight for me). Her heaviest was 335, mine 325. One difference is as a youth she never struggled with her weight. I did from the time I was 11 or 12. She said on the show, something like, I've been killing myself with a fork. That's me, not really a fork but definitely with food!

Today I'm getting serious again. My life is NO joking matter but that's how I've been treating it. It's 5:15pm and so far I've stayed on track and have walked 2 miles. Yay me! But it's not the one day that counts. It's the hundreds of "one days" that will make up a year, a decade, the rest of my life.

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  • v MISSG180
    I just want to say again that I think it's awesome that you've come back and are working on it again. I don't think it would have even occurred to me to attempt a tri at 299 pounds! You are an inspiration!
    1416 days ago
  • v ITSHOWYOULIVE
    You are seriously underrating how much you accomplished doing the tri! It is do-able for someone who wants it. How many people, though, were sitting on their sofas while you were out there doing it? I still remember the trepidation in some of the posts leading up to the event. You fought all that, beat it down and went out and did something great!! You can do whatever you want and stopping and starting is just life. Sometimes we get busy and have to put our priorities elsewhere for a bit. It is only when you don't start again that you really have to worry. :) Hope now that summer is winding down and fall is moving in that you can find more time for what you want to accomplish and set some great goals to end the year on! :)
    1438 days ago
  • v 1HAPPYSPIRIT
    We all struggle from time to time....but your honesty on your blog was cathartic. Please know the LEMON Team is here to support and encourage you! WE CARE!!!
    1448 days ago
  • v LNZMANSFIELD
    Thank you for sharing! It is very encouraging to read. I watch those Extreme Makeover WL show and it truly does open your eyes. I have struggled most my life with weight issues. My mother was not an encouragement...she more or less said I was too big when I was younger and always commented on weight gain as a teen. I look back and think really?!?! Who does that?? No wonder I was so insecure. We, as a family, never ate healthy. And her cooking..awful..which makes you grab for a bag of chips LOL...I shouldn't laugh, but it is true. Having a daughter of my own, I think...do I say those things? I sure hope not...she is a little overweight and turns to food for comfort...but we are going to work on that.

    Anyway, I got off track! I am glad you are changing you...making time for your health. Eye openers are great and we can do this! I know I want to be around for my husband and kids and I am sure you do too! We can do this! We are strong moms/wives/women!!!
    1463 days ago
  • v SOULWOMAN
    I can totally relate. You can do it. Remember the chinese proverb: Fall seven times, but get up eight times. Also give yourself credit for the healthy changes that you have made and that you have stuck to. Hang in there!!
    1465 days ago
  • v NANCYSINATRA
    do you remember how you inspired me? I did my first 5K because of you. (use to be hateputer) I was thinking about a tri, until I did a total eat it off my bike the other night. LOL, the pics are on my page.
    I have lost my way more times than I can count. I have started and stopped more times than I can count, and always end up gaining back MORE than I lost previously. I CAN say that it has been 11 months now on SP for me, and I haven't thrown in the towel yet. Been tempted, have had my binges, have fallen off the wagon for a month or two, but I'm still here. I went from April to August working out, walking, and yet lost nothing because of my weekend binges. BUT, I'll take a maintain. It's better than a gain. AND, I'm still not smoking!!
    So Krista, If I can do this, YOU SURE CAN!! You are the one that motivated me!!
    This month I re-committed myself to this journey. ( I've heard that the summer months are notorious for people falling off the wagon) So far I'm down 10 lbs. Join a challenge again, and let's do this thing together!!! YOU are worth it
    1466 days ago
  • v DEBLYNN323
    I completely understand....struggling myself with staying focused. I had a good day yesterday, for which I'm proud. But like you said it's one day and I need several one days to accomplish my goal....I'm right there with you.

    Continue to make each day "one day"....your one day achievements may surprise you in a month! Good luck!
    1469 days ago
  • v FITFORMYFAMILY
    How has your week been so far? I hope that it's been full of a lot of the good kind of "one days"! Unfortunately, I can identify with you a lot in that it's easy to let the slump get out of control and just stop caring. I'm glad we're both here trying to move beyond that kind of attitude to better living.
    1469 days ago
  • v FLUTTER-BY)L(
    Sorry it is so hard for you to keep going. But, you are still here and you are moving forward right now. Just keep at it. Remember who you are and who the Lord wants you to be. I have been thinking of that for me.

    I realized that I am not listening to the Holy Ghost when I am eating bad and ignoring my good health. Keep moving forward adding prayer into the journey and you will make it. emoticon
    1470 days ago
  • v NOTGIVINGUP49
    All those stops and starts, like it or not, have been valuable. They have taught you that you do need to make your health a priority. Change doesn't happen overnight and typically require many, many, many attempts as was with me. They are All part of the process of LASTING change. You might have been able to do it faster, but would it have lasted? Likely not so don't be so hard on yourself. Assess and accept where you are then go on from there. emoticon emoticon
    1470 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/14/2012 10:55:41 PM
  • v MACMOM57
    I know just how you feel. I get so lazy. Keep working it one day at a time.
    1471 days ago
  • v MISSG180
    I'm struggling a bit with motivation right now, as well. I think it's the shortening days and our bodies saying, "get ready to hibernate." But we can fight it!!
    1471 days ago
  • v HELENTORTOISE
    Wishing you well, Krista. emoticon
    1471 days ago
  • v GRANDMABEAST63
    emoticon hey you and me both since I completed my triathlon it is like: NOW WHAT? I was still eating for my endurance training without the endurance, result a 7 pounds gain yikes ! You can, we can do this:)

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    1471 days ago
  • v CINDYKC2000
    Krista, you know we are here for you. Just let us know what you need. emoticon
    1471 days ago
  • v SCOUTMOM715
    You are worth it!! emoticon emoticon
    1471 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/13/2012 10:24:23 PM
  • v NEWKATHYNOW
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    1472 days ago
  • v FITMARY
    Sounds like you are ready! Just go nice and slow. Take those baby steps. Make those small changes that lead to big things! Hang on!!!
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    1472 days ago
  • v NOTABOUTHEFACE
    Welcome back Kotter. You're worth overhauling.

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    1472 days ago
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