This is MY LIFE!
I keep starting and stopping. When I stop I completely fall off the healthy lifestyle. Yes, this last pause I was able to pull off a Sprint Triathalon but truly, as long as you feel comfortable in the water, I think Anyone could do a Sprint Tri. I'm proud that I did it, glad to know I could do it but knowing how little I trained for it (from April on) it's really doable for all.
Sometimes I go through times that I JUST DON'T CARE about my health. Surprisingly I've cared more about my Peanut M&M's, my Mexican restaurants, my carb cravings being fulfilled with salty chips and white breat and my sugar (anything SWEET!)
When will I finally put ME first?! Not just mysefl first so I can have a few minutes to read. Not just me first so I can take a nap. Not just me first so I can take a stroll in the neighborhood and get some fresh air. When will I finally put ME first so I do NOT die?!!!
I have to stop this back and forth. I have to stop making the commitment to myself for only a two month period only to run quickly back to my friend (?) the Two Pound bag of Peanut M&M's.
The Sprint Triathalon was a good wake up call for me. Not only did I realize I was NO WHERE near where I had planned to be when I first contemplated the Tri back in January. (goal was 250. Instead of weighing that I had put back on most of my weight and did the Tri at 299.2). But seeing all these amazing fit women motivated me. One lady lapped me 4 times! Crazy! Several ladies did the swim in 8 min and did the 5k in 27 minutes (remember to throw in the bike portion in between the two)
These past few months I've been seeing a counselor. Someone to help me through life. Help me have a better marriage, steer my children better and how to be a better stronger me. My user name, Overhauling-Me, represents how I've felt for so long. It's just not a weight loss I'm looking for I'm aching for an all over wellness. I want to be physically healthy, spiritually healthy, mentally healthy and be a better organized, time manager mom/wife/ME.
I watched Extreme Makeover: Weight Loss Edition last night. This episode hit home. She is the same age as me (45) and was fit at 23 (at 23 I was 170. Since I'm 6'0" that was a perfect weight for me). Her heaviest was 335, mine 325. One difference is as a youth she never struggled with her weight. I did from the time I was 11 or 12. She said on the show, something like, I've been killing myself with a fork. That's me, not really a fork but definitely with food!
Today I'm getting serious again. My life is NO joking matter but that's how I've been treating it. It's 5:15pm and so far I've stayed on track and have walked 2 miles. Yay me! But it's not the one day that counts. It's the hundreds of "one days" that will make up a year, a decade, the rest of my life.