Monday, August 13, 2012
So, things got pretty busy over the Spring and Summer. I defended my dissertation proposal in April (ouch! stress eating!), went on a 3-week vacation in May (ouch! cruise weight gain!), had to travel to present research at two separate conferences in June and July (ouch! more stress eating), and went on a rather emotional roller-coaster with my BF as he navigated the stress of graduation, moving back in with his mom, starting a new job, finding an apartment, and overcoming his mom's resistance to his moving back out on his own. He actually still hasn't managed to move out yet - so that particular rollercoaster of emotion and stress continues.
I'm kicking myself to have to report that my weight crept up and up over these months until I hit the 170s - over ten pounds higher than my previous low weight! My 45-pound weight loss (from 205 to 160) is looking a lot less impressive, and I know I have to fight hard to halt my trajectory of re-gain.
Last month, I started working on cleaning out my cupboards and mentally preparing myself to get back to my healthier lifestyle. It's been a bit of a slow start, but beginning this month I've been taking action - walking for about an hour every morning for the last two weeks. I've also been eating lower-carb. I have lots of healthy yummy high-protein options in my fridge (carbmaster yogurt, tomato & basil mozzarella sticks, liquid egg whites to add into smoothies, frozen strawberries and veggies and soyburgers). I'm still eating some whole grains (low-carb tortillas and oatmeal), legumes, and plenty of fruits & veggies - so I'm not exactly on a low-carb diet. But I cut out a LOT of the carbs that my normal diet would have included (pasta, rice, popcorn, toast).
With this higher-protein, lower-carb diet, I haven't been counting calories at all yet. I told myself it was just while I get used to eating these foods, and that eventually I'd "get strict" and start up my calorie counting again. But, I'm honestly dreading counting calories (I think the effort it takes is part of why I ended up avoiding Sparkpeople for so many months - I was dreading having to put that much time/energy into logging my foods.)
Amazingly enough, I'm actually losing weight without counting calories, so far! I'm down 5 pounds in two weeks - to 166 - as of this morning! Of course, I know a lot of it is probably water weight, so I'm trying not to let it get to my head. Honestly, I keep expecting these results to evaporate since it seems too good to be true that I'm actually losing weight WITHOUT feeling constantly hungry and deprived, and without vigilantly monitoring every drink or bite of food. Can I really lose weight without calorie counting?? Can I keep walking the fine line between not feeling deprived, and not eating so much that it stalls (or reverses) my weight loss efforts?
I'm open to the fact that I might need to change, but as long as it seems to be working, I'm going to give it a shot!