hi everyone i am not the one to usually ask for dua and prayers but i do ask this time.i am going through a stressful time as usual.friday i started feeling really ill,dizzy,no energy and nausious i went to bed the same time as the kids and didnīt even wake up when lotfi came back from the moschee.he said he tried to wake me up and i was out for the counti didnīt hear him come to bed later or even hear ayyub come into our bed whoich is not like me as i am a very light sleeper as i have to listen out for the kids incase they have any breathing problems etc,so first this was very unlike me.when i woke up saturday morning my right leg was covered in a great big ugly red raw rash from ankle to knee and my left leg only had a bit of a rash on it.it was burning still is and it feels hot to the touch but the slightest touch when one of the children accidently knock me or an item of my clothing touches it i could really scream(in fact i have on several occassions.)normally i would have gone to the er on saturday but i was afraid they would keep me in and as ayyub has an operation tomorrow(10am german time please pray)and i had to take him today for his pre op check up i didnīt go.by sunday my left leg was as covered as my right also my feet and it is starting to spread above the knee,.well today went to my drīs who even called in the senior dr of the practice who also happenes to be an internist to look.my dr says i am also showing her things she has never seen etc.like she had never heard about my blood desease untill i got diaognosed with it.she said she has seen this on my leg before but normally only on one leg and not so bad,the blood vessels are definately infected and she has given me antibiotics,she wanted me to go straight to the hospital but i have promised to go straight after ayyub has had his operation and i know he is alright(so here is hoping that he doesnīt have any after effects while i am in the hospital as both my dr and her senior partner seems to think thy will keep me in.they think it is either to do with my blood desease or that i have maybe another auto immune desease that hasnīt been diaognosed yet,lol.(as if i havenīt got enough wrong with me.in the meantime i am not to do anything and to keep my feet up as much as possible and if the rash moves higher up the body i am not to wait till after ayyubs operation but go straight to hospital not to pass go and not to pick up my 200$(well hospitals feel like jails to me)having said that that is the last thing i can do at the moment if i am going into hospital i have to first do some ironing to save lotfi later,make some bread as well as pack a bag for the hospital justin case as the last time i went in re the aneurysma and we didnīt know i was staying my husband did it and it was all wrong who needs 8 bras and only two slips,pj tops no bottoms,etc,etc so after i wrote this blog i will be busy and check ever 30 minutes for ten minutes feet up on spark till all is done.not that there is ever a right time for hospital this is definately a bad time as it is ramadam so with lotfi fasting he will have a hard job energy wise looking after the kids as well as cooking the meals as because of zakariyas allergies everything and i mean everything has to be made from scratch and if ayyub has any after effects from his op and i am not there.also if i have to spend along time in hospital i will also miss our eid whicjh is our religious celerbration at the end of eid.lotfi will also probably not be able to visit me in this hospital out of several reasons,no children are allowed.it is in the middle of towmn and our car is not registered for that zone so he couldnīt take the car in.he also wouldnīt be able to go to moschee for talawii prayers and this are the most important times(the last ten days)to be inm the moschee.like i said wrong timing.on the good side this time i will have a tapestry to do to take with me as i can only do 10 mins at a time so it is not finished,lol.normally at this time of year we are in tunisia so i am please this has happened while we are here,no offensce to tunisia but the medical conditions are alot better here.anyway thereit is .you can see now why i am asking for prayers.if they donīt keep me in hospital i will be back tomorrow night to post how ayyubs op went and what the hospital said about me but if you donīt here know i am in hospital.hope you all are having a better time of it as me.take care and keep smiling.thanks once again for being there for me.hugs