Monday, August 13, 2012
Today I weigh 174. My biggest weight ever.
I've gained 21.8 lbs in 4 months!
Now let me give you my excuse...
My grandmother was diagnosed with cancer. We thought she was gonna be fine. Especially when all of her cancer cleared up. WEll, we were wrong. The chemo allowed her COPD to win her life over. She was in and out of the hospital for months before she died on July 1. Most of my weight gain has happened since her death. We were extremely close.
That being said, she would be so disappointed to know that i am at my heaviest ever. She was always so proud of my losing weight.
So now I am back yet again. Giving this weight loss thing a millionth try. My goal is to be 150 by September 22 (my cousin's wedding. I'm the maid of honor). SO every day is going to be hard work. It's so sad that I've let myself get up to this point. And honestly, I'm not motivated yet. I am just sad about where I am.
I will never be this heavy again. Period.