Two pounds lost and I begin 'week two' fighting to stay positive and a little daunted by the task ahead. It all does feel more fun this time and I feel less of the need to push my self to oblivion. I still have doubts that I can achieve a steady loss and those remain the thoughts I continue to try to turn around.

After a session on the treadmill I feel energised and positive as I always do. I did have to give myself a talking to to get myself on there. Proving that sometimes you just have to suck it up and get on with it to feel better.

I am trying hard to visualise myself slim and healthy each day but I must say its difficult to believe. Just how do you change a belief that feels as solid as rock deep down inside you? I know this is going to be the key to my success or failure. Speak to anyone who has achieved something over a long period of time and they will say it was the vision of what they wanted that pulled them along.

Somewhere along the course of my life I have picked up the belief that I am a failure, a quitter, someone who never finishes what she starts. One experience after another has confirmed this bottom line until like a ball of cement it has solidified and become solid.

I try to tell myself its just not true, I can be and do anything I want to but it always sits there heavy and immoveable. I'm off to have a go at the Focus Wheel youtu.be/7B_UBW2MwAg so kindly suggested by HANNAHEP.

All suggestions on how I blast this belief to pieces greatly received!