Exactly one year ago today I was fat, miserable and a whoppin' 337 pounds. Being that large for me in the hot summers made it unbearable. I didn't go outside to do any yard work, didn't go out with friends for outdoor activities and didn't have any fun! My air conditioner broke last July for about two weeks and it was the longest two weeks of my life! I sat on the couch, stewing in 100 degree stale air, eating nothing but ice cream and freezer pops constantly. When my boyfriend and I would go out, it was to eat. Chinese buffet at least once a week, filling my plate at least twice and then getting a full plate of dessert too. We would order pizza once a week, cheese sticks and a full family size pizza devoured in a matter of minutes.
June 30th, 2011 (I'm in the middle in the purple and white)
I was fat and lazy and wasn't doing a damn thing about it. I just didn't realize how bad I really looked.
April 15th, 2011
Then, my best friend asked my boyfriend and I if we wanted to go to Vegas with her and her boyfriend and a couple other friends. We had never been so we decided to tag along. While most of the trip was a lot of fun, there are still parts that I will never forget because they are the reason I decided to change my life.
The majority of the people that went with us were all under or around 200 pounds. While they were lookin' great, I was a sweaty, drippy mess. They were dressed to the nines and I was wearing shorts and tank tops because that's all I could handle.
My size 32 shorts were getting too tight and I was so unhappy.
Aug 11th, 2011
We had made a reservation to go out one night at New York, New York. We had all decided to dress up and look fancy for this dinner. I had brought a dress and some spanx but when I went to try it on, I was so warm and so uncomfortable and popping out in all the wrong places. I changed back to my old, ugly capri's and a dressier shirt. That night, I vowed that when I got home, I would start to exercise and eat healthy... I had had enough! I was sick of not fitting in the plane seats and needing extenders. Sick of not wanting to go see shows because my hips were too wide to fit in the seats. Sick of just being the fat friend.
I came back from Vegas a few days later and started to change my life! Little did I know on August 15th last year that I would be 139 pounds lighter a year from then!
This summer is NOTHING like last summer. I've worn swimsuits, gotten an excellent tan, and actually have had a LOT of fun! I'm not that sweaty mess anymore, I'm actually hardly ever too overheated at all! I'm now full of confidence that I've never had before and have even started dancing at bars... in front of people.... eek! I'm feeling beautiful and skinny. These feelings are so foreign to me, but I'm actually enjoying them! I never thought in a million years I would be this person, but I'm truly happy to say that I am!
about 220, May 2012
This wouldn't be a lifestyle change without ups and downs along the way. If I had to do it again (um... why would I want to?!) there is only one thing I would change. When I started working out, for the first five or so months, I did cardio only. While this is when I lost the majority of my weight, I think a lot of it was muscle. I didn't lose very many inches in those first five months because I wasn't strength training. I now believe that strength training is a critical part of losing weight and inches. By incorporating strength training into my routine, the inches started to drop right away!
Now I've always been 'big boned'. I have a large frame and don't expect to see any less than MAYBE 170. I have wide hips and curves, which I like quite a bit! My goal weight is 187. I would like to get a bit less than that and settle somewhere around there. I'm 5'8" and I'm never going to be the "ideal" weight of 147, and I'm A-OK with that!
So I have about 15 pounds to lose and then its maintenance time. I've been afraid of maintenance since I realized I wasn't giving up on this journey! I know its doable, its just it will take some getting used to! Right now I'm used to losing and knowing what I have to do to lose. I'll have to get used to a happy medium. I was never conscious at 337 pounds of what I put in my mouth. Tacos upon tacos and whole frozen pizzas... none of that phased me. I am now super conscious of everything I intake and I realize that if I want to stay this way forever, this is what I'll have to do!
June, 2012. 214ish pounds
There were so many things I learned along the way:
First, this wasn't a diet. That was the number one thing I had to ingrain in my head! This is something I needed to be able to do forever, so a diet was not it! I had to make this work for me, something I could do for the long haul! I learned that I can be bad sometimes. An occasional night out or one meal over calories isn't going to kill me. As long as I stick to working out and eating in moderation the rest of the week, I'll be fine. Its really a day at a time trip... over-thinking it makes it seem so much harder.
Second, I learned that nobody is going to do this for you. This process is one that you do on your own. Its life long and to not gain it back, you have to be strong and motivated! Nobody is going to do it with you either. WAIT for NOBODY!!! Work your @$$ off while you can. If somebody does want to do it with you, so be it, but don't be held back if they stop! This is for you!
Lastly, this does take a LOT of time. It takes motivation and determination, but really, there are no secrets. Eat less and burn more... simple as that. I didn't cut anything out of my diet, I just either don't eat it because I know its not good for me or I eat it in moderation. I mess up too.... last night, for example, I had three chocolate chip cookies. I'm not proud of it, but today is a new day. I start over and get right back on the wagon.
I had to take my weight loss in mini goals. At 337, looking at 150 pounds to lose is daunting! I would have given up way too easy if I wouldn't have thought about it in 10 pound increments. 10 pounds at a time makes it seem attainable and just within reach. I didn't give myself any rewards, especially food rewards. I would go buy new clothes when the old ones didn't fit and being able to fit into those smaller clothes was a reward in itself.
Aug 4th, 2012, 199!
Other than my own personal goals and determination to get to where I am, I have to give credit to Sparkpeople. Some of the people on here are absolutely amazing! The support that everyone gives each other and the feeling of knowing you aren't alone in this helped me so much along the way! Reading about peoples triumphs and struggles, knowing there are people who feel the same way you do, really helps.
198 pounds. WOW. Last time I saw the 100's was 8th grade.... over 13 years ago. I've never been so happy in my entire life! I have a long road ahead of me and I now look forward to every minute of it!