Monday, August 13, 2012
Hello, it has been a while since I posted on here. I have been struggling with motivation lately. I thought that by posting here I might get some it back. I don't know what it is exactly I have been struggling lately maybe it is a lack of focus, or laziness, I just don't know. I can't seem to get that "spark" back. I sound like I am whining don't I? I have been working out a few times, not as much as I feel as though I should and I keep making excuses as to why I am not tracking and eating right. I feel down right now because I am being so hard on myself. I think I need to go on Sparkpeople.com more, maybe that will help me get motivated again. I think I wil try and read the Spark book again, see if I can get re-motivated. Since school hasn't started yet I have a lot of free time to refocus my energy on my efforts. What I need to focus my energies on right now is the eating component. If anyone has any advice for me I would love to hear it.
Oh I forgot to mention, I think, that an old college friend is coming back to town and he created a facebook group for an exercise group. He is forming 3 levels of groups based on what people responded that they are at. One of the groups is a couch to 5k group. There are 3 sessions this week for group 1 and I am going to try and attend all of them. The first session is on Tuesday night. My friend (Joe) is also making a contest to see who can lose the most body fat, as measured by him, which might motivate me again. I am really looking forward to this, but am nervous about exercising with old friends that I haven't seen in a while. I think that I have been isolating myself lately. I haven't done anything social that I can think of in forever. I want to have a social life, but it is going to be awkward to see these people again.
I think that writing this helped, not everything is negative, I am not working as hard as I could be, but I shouldn't feel guilty, at least I will be going back to exercising this week and if I can start to watch what I eat and eat better I think I will make progress. I am afraid that I have not been losing weight, but I was able to tighten the belt that I purchased on vacation by one notch already, so if I keep positive and keep working I should make progress. I need to focus on the positive and forget about my fears and nerves. Thanks for listening to my rambling this week.