Saturday, August 11, 2012
Tired today, because, although I was ready for bed at 10:45, had to work out an issue with hubby that kept me awake until 11:45. Then I just really couldn't sleep. Partly I was confused about the issue, partly I was mad that he would bring more stress upon me right before sleeping time when we both know that sleep is important and difficult for me. I got so angry I got up at 12:15, got dressed, and told him I was driving to the store for epsom salts so I could have a bath. He drove me instead, and though we didn't talk much, I felt better just knowing that he will help me even after a squabble. Had bath, went to sleep.
But then, deep in the night, I woke up to the smell of skunk! Seriously putrid stuff. I've never had a SMELL keep me awake like that. We'd had the windows open earlier, but even though they were closed, the stench lingered. I covered my nose with the sheet. I dreamed of skunks dead in the road outside our house, dreamed of conflict with neighbors, dreamed that the roof fell off... it was a restless night for me.
Today is a new day, though, and there's good news: 165.6! I could feel that I had lost a little weight this week. I'm not quite at week 3, and I'm down from 170 to 165.6, which feels amazing!!! I have a hike scheduled with a friend today. I know it will really wear me out to follow through with that plan, but not following through just doesn't feel right to me. I think I really do want to go for a hike, because it's beautiful out and I really enjoy spending time with this friend. Plus school will start soon, and then it will feel even harder to take a little day-trip like this one.
So it's time for breakfast and decisions. I could scale it back, from hike to walk, but going to the beautiful place will make me really happy. It involves driving, though. Still on the fence.