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AKCHELLE
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I need a new fight plan

Saturday, August 11, 2012



I've realized a few things:

Men are Pigs.
and
I've used food as my shield.

So, I started using SP as a tool to help me lose weight and become healthier. My goals when starting were simple; lose enough weight to get out of the plus size section of the store, and to be able to mostly keep up with my kids.
I reached half of my goal. I can shop for pants in the regular section of the store. I wear regular size 16 Levis now not Women's. OK actually I wear short Levis, but no amount of working out is going to make me taller. I'm working on the top half. I'm top heavy.

I went from a 20 to a 16 and maintained well, but have notice a gain recently. I've reflected on my life and the changes and stresses.

Yes there have been stresses. Losing and gaining loved ones, work changes, schedule changes, medical issues, life just happens.

I could blame or rationalize the gain on anyone of these things, but that's not the realization that I came to recently.

Men are pigs and I use food as a shield. I've had more than one man pursue me. They knew I am married and not interested, but started in anyway. Side note- this island is full of men and women who cheat on their spouses, and it's common and there are a lot of half siblings.
Having open relationships and cheating is a cultural norm here.

So, I've put up this wall, I avoid certain men, and I eat.

The only man that I want to think that I am beautiful or sexy is my husband.

I eat and become less attractive. Dumpy not sexy.

This story goes way way back to when I was a child and a man was creepy and bad things happened.

I've used food as a shield for many years.

I need a new fight plan.
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  • v EBEAMS
    First of all .... Hugs, hugs, hugs and more hugs ... You are doing the right things to get started on that new "fight" plan. You are identifying the problems and speaking them out, which makes them more real. Working in an environment that is very difficult and often confusing. Honor your feelings and concentrate on what is the BEST for YOU! Hugs!
    1415 days ago
  • v YIGOBUTTERFLY
    Good for you in the weight loss! Ups and downs can be expected. Just get back up when you fall and keep going.

    (For a good laugh, or cry, read my Superman blog!) Through it all I seem to have lost some weight. emoticon Have put some of it back on recently. Not having control over what I eat can make a difference.

    JUST DON"T QUIT! emoticon emoticon

    Jane
    1416 days ago
  • v MARTA_M
    Find your bliss to sustain you, give yourself a hug to comfort yourself. Your wee one needs to know what an amazing woman, wife, sister, and mother you are. You deserve the comfort you share with the rest of us. SLAM!
    1416 days ago
  • v KNITTINGNAN
    WOW!!!! Good luck to you!
    1416 days ago
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