Fighting the blues and winning.
Friday, August 10, 2012
Today I had the blues and really did not want to do anything. Sometimes I get so exhausted from my lifestyle change. Does that sound silly? It isn't like I've taken on everything at once and am overwhelmed by it like newbies to weight loss. I've been making changes for years now and started slowly. First it was cutting out soda, then salt, etc etc, you get the point. I guess I just wished I was at the end of my journey already and was feeling down about how long it seems to be taking. I've lost weight in 30-50 pounds bursts and then stall out. Sometimes I am annoyed by it because if I kept losing I'd be at my goal weight.
But I try to think positively and spent a good chunk of the day trying to do so to get out of my blue funk. I might've lost that weight in bursts but I have kept it off. Victory! In my times of breaking from weight loss I've learned how to maintain my losses. So my months of not actively losing weight were not wasted completely. I am proud of that.
I also came to the conclusion that it is okay to sometimes feel exhausted by my lifestyle change. Let's face it: it is a lot of work I'm doing! Working out each day, planning meals, cooking meals, counting calories, etc. It might not ever be second nature for me to do these things and it is okay. It's not the end of the world if sometimes I am just not feeling it. But it is important that I keep on doing them regardless and so I do. "Don't think, just do." I mentioned before that it is a mantra of mine and I try to stick with it. It really does help.
So, after a time of moping on the couch I got up and hopped on the treadmill. It was a struggle. Not in the lazy struggle kind of way, but the "I already feel drained" kind of way. But I walked and jogged and got my 20 minutes in when I said I was only going to do 10! I was my own cheerleader and said kind things to myself and wouldn't ya know I started to believe them and it fueled me to continue. Later I got on my exercise bike and did 40 minutes on there and beat my personal best record. 12.6 miles in 40 minutes! Wooooo!
I am feeling pretty good now and I know tomorrow will be a better day. I hope everyone has a nice weekend. Thanks for reading. =)