"You aren't as big as you think you are"
Friday, August 10, 2012
I know what size I wear if I buy clothes from specific designers. My clothes range from size 14 to 18, or XL to M, even some petites, depending on brand and fit.
And I have a bunch of clothes that I'm NOT taking for travelling, or saving - so I put everything in the closet in my studio/office, along with a bin of shoes, another bin of purses. $10 per dress or shirt or jeans, $10 per pair of shoes, purses from $5 to $30 depending on size and brand. Sold a bunch with the house sale, and a few to people who came by to buy the couch, bed, etc.
So here I am, looking for women I think are in my size range - and my line was something like, "I'm not sure what size you are, but there are clothes and shoes for sale in the closet back there, so be sure to check it out."
And a teacher from school came by to check out the bed. I know she's much taller than I am. But I'm kind of clueless about what size she is, and so I gave her my little clothes-available line.
She looked at me (down at me from her 5'11") and said, "You are either trying to flatter me, or you just don't know what size you are! You aren't as BIG as you think you are!"
So I have to re-assess my mental image of myself. Which is kind of strange. To not think of myself as BIG. I'm trying to adjust to thinking of myself as medium. I'm not slim or thin, I know I'm not there yet. But medium. I'll aim for adjusting to medium.