Friday, August 10, 2012
I have been squeezing the heck outta the stress ball i have @ work. apparently, the things i can't change are ganging up on my sanity and they have decided that this morning they will attack my stress level full force. i know there are things i have no control over. my mother has told me that all my life. however, since i am like my mother, i really desire to be able to control EVERYTHING and EVERYONE in my life (DH mostly). so, despite what he says to me (because many of the things i have heard many times before), i just simply don't believe him. i love him and i won't kick him outta the house. but, i just don't believe anything he tells me regarding looking for a job. i am so stressed about it, that i think i need to up my dosage of anti anxiety meds. otherwise, i will feel like i have to resort to drinking beer or wine most nights of the week. i really don't want to do that.
BTW, in order to try to keep my credit card paid off, and as a result be able to live on my income, i am cancelling/giving up some things that i enjoy but aren't necessities (Curves, Spoiling Pets For You, anything else i have gotten to yet). that doesn't make me happy, but apparently DH is who i should be focusing on and trying to make HIM happy??????????