Thursday, August 09, 2012
Today I went for a jog for the first time in over a month. I've been feeling really stressed out lately and I am trying my best to use exercise, regular sleep and meditation combined with yoga as ways to relieve stress. Today I wanted to go for a run. I needed to sweat out my stress and it helped! I'm not used to jogging and usually when I do it, I do intervals of walking and jogging, but today it just felt so good and so easy that I skipped the walking altogether. I jogged very slowly, and I ended up going 2.2. miles in about 23 minutes. It's a pretty good time for me since I think I've never jogged for that long without stopping before. I usually go for walks.
Why have I been so stressed out lately? Here's the deal. We are moving. My boyfriend and I are moving to a new city and I'm transferring to a new college. I decided I wanted to change my life and pursue new goals as I wasn't happy with the direction where I was headed. Last winter was very tough for me because I felt like I was at the wrong place and wasn't pursuing my dreams or living my life with passion and purpose. I was studying hotel management at a different college but it just didn't feel right. It has never been a dream of mine to work in that field and I don't know why I ended up there in the first place! As I started improving other aspects of my life, I discovered that what I wanted to do and study was actually something a lot more creative and artistic. Deep down, I only wanted to follow the one big dream that I've had ever since I was a child: I want to become a writer. I have been too afraid to go after this dream in the past but now as I've already made some huge changes in my life I feel like I finally have the courage to start moving towards this dream. So I'm starting my studies at the University of Turku in September and I'll be majoring in literature and creative writing. A dream come true for me!! I couldn't be more excited!! This is a fresh start, a new beginning. I'm so looking forward to this.
But as exciting as it is, it's also very stressful. Moving can be so tough sometimes. There are so many things to remember and to take care of... I feel like my head is about to explode sometimes! But I feel like exercising regularly and sticking to a healthy meal plan helps A LOT. I'll be doing my best to stay on the right track this month despite the stress! I'll be happy with maintaining this weight until we're done moving and until our vacation is over (in addition to everything, we're going on a two week vacation to Greece next Monday! My goal is to not gain any weight while we're there. That's good enough for me!).
This post is probably so incoherent because I'm really tired (it's already 1:12 am here in Finland) and my mind is running in circles. I just thought I'd give you guys an update about what's going on in my life at the moment.
Hope you're all doing great! I need to catch up with you guys. I miss you all!