Who am I kidding?
Thursday, August 09, 2012
Last night was not a good night for me. After getting the hang of this sleeping thing (and enjoying a good night's sleep regularly for a couple of weeks), for various reasons I ended up awake a little after 1:00 this morning and could not go back to sleep for a couple of hours. That meant that I did not get up at my normal time and cycle in the cooler part of the early morning hours. Usually we would walk to mom's to check up on her but meetings prevented that today and I ended up pretty much working through lunch time - uh oh .. now what about my bare minimum of 10 minutes exercise each day for my Spark Streaks???
I thought about how many times I had gone up and down the 2 flights of stairs to the bathroom today (sure I could go to the bathroom right on this floor but I prefer upstairs and the exercise). So I could kind of cheat a bit and mark down my 10 minutes of exercise so that I don't break the streak couldn't I? After all, I have done about 4 times my goal for the week already and it is hot again (yes, yet another 100 degree day in paradise and it never got out of the 70's last night) - so what would be wrong with that? I deserve a little bit of a break don't I?
Right, as if that is in my nature! on my next trip upstairs to the bathroom, I made myself walk into the 'exercise room' - turned on the fan, turned on music and hit the exercise bike .. why am I puffing and panting so lately when I know that I am fitter and weigh less than I have in a long time? is that an excuse to stop after a couple of minutes? Hang on a sec. there - the last couple of days, you have been feeling absolutely amazing in those little shorts that you haven't been able to wear for the last 2 summers - do you want to lose that feeling, do you want to lose that look for yourself - you know what happens when you let exercise slide, when you start making excuses. So I stuck with it for the 10 minutes and burned a few more calories than I normally burn on my morning bicycle ride - the exercise bike uses arms as well as legs and it is interesting to see how many more calories that burns off.
After I had done with my exercise, I felt better about myself - I am not a cheat really. Sure I get lazy sometimes but I give myself a talking to and remind myself what I am really gaining.
So, what about who am I kidding? You certainly don't look at my fitness tracker, you especially don't look at my streaks tracker - I am the only one that sees them so really, who am I really hoping to kid - me?? I know better about what I am really doing and what I am slipping up on so why pretend - don't I feel better for having really done what I almost (for a second or two) was going to pretend to do?