Thursday, August 09, 2012
Well, its been almost 6 wks since my last blog. I've been extremely busy. We moved on July 2nd. Then there was the getting everything ready because for my in-laws arrival. They are sharing the house we are renting with us to save money. Then I was asked to volunteer my time for a special project that ended up being a full-time task, on top of working. It has also turned out to be very a stressful and emotional ride. So between, exhaustion and feeling emotional spent, I haven't really had the heart to write.
The project is not done, its completion is set for September 16th. However, I being constantly told that the stressful part is done with. I doubt it but I'm working really hard on how I'm handling it. Its become a 'keep your opinions to yourself to keep the peace' situation. Oh well, as Calvin's dad always says in Calvin and Hobbes: It builds character!
With all the emotional stresses, I've had to deal with a lot of emotional eating. I've noticed that I won't feel hungry and forget to eat. But then I tell myself that I really should eat as this won't help the situation. However, once I start eating, I can't stop. For example, one night I hadn't had breakfast or lunch, so around 9pm I decided to have some pasta salad. I wasn't hungry when I started but I ended up with 2 more (small) helpings of it. I couldn't stop myself. My husband just looked at me and said: wow, you really are an emotional eater :S
Anyways, I'm really trying to channel my stress into something better. I've started my TurboFire again. The punching and kicking will hopefully diffuse some of the stress. I'm trying to go back to what worked in the beginning: workout at least 10 min every day, 8 glasses of water and tracking food. With all the challenges, I was feeling to intimidated to start because I felt like the little I could contribute was a blimp, unnoticable in the big scheme of things. Its hard to go from doing 2000-2500 minutes a month to 500... It didn't feel good enough. So I'm changing my thoughts to a more positive direction. Do whatever I can, even just 10 minutes, as long as its daily!
I need to stop beating myself over everything and accept that I can't always aim to workout like a professional athlete. I hope that this will help me feel better about myself and put me in a much more productive frame of mind.