Thursday, August 09, 2012
So itís been awhile since I blogged last. And the last blog I posted was about making changes and not letting others pretty much use me as a door mat.
I am happy to say for the most part I have been doing well at this. When I feel the urge to become upset over something I take a step back. I go through my questions and evaluate the situation. Most times I come up with this is something out of my hands, let it play out how itís going to play out and just be a by stander.
But just in the last week I bought a new car. Now this was a very stressful last few weeks for me and became a huge pressure cooker for me last week Thursday. My credit isnít the greatest and I know there was a huge chance that I wasnít going to be able to get a loan for the car I was looking for. But before we get into all that, letís back the train up to about a month or so before hand. The car that I have / had is 10 plus years old. Itís been a good car and I havenít had to stick much money into it, but itís starting to show its age. So I had been asked if I was going to get a new car what kind of car would I like to get. I throw a few cars out there and had been told those of sensible cars, but wouldnít I want something a bit more fun. I say yes that would be nice but. . . . So the search went to find a Mits Eclipse. My intention wasnít to really start looking for one till around September when I would have a large ďbonusĒ coming from work and I could use some of that money for a down payment and such. Well the car was found and the rush to get financing was on. To be honest I wasnít too happy with how the whole thing played out. In a way I felt I was being pushed into getting this car. Now donít get me wrong I got a great deal on this car and everything work out in the end. But for three days I wasnít able to eat because I was so stressed on how I was going to make it work so I could get the car. And the person who found the car for me wasnít making things any easier on me. This personís feelings where if I couldnít get the loan for the car then my parents should do it for me and when I got my check from work the first part of September I could clean up my credit and get the loan under my name. Not sure what rock he crawled out from under but I am not 20 something anymore and there is no way my parents are going to take a loan out in their name for a car that I want. Not sure how everyone elseís parents work but I am thinking the general rule is most to almost all the people I know their parents wouldnít do this for them. Now this personís parents would do it in a heartbeat, so naturally he thinks this is the norm and that everyone elseís parents would do this as well. So this starts a huge fight between the two of us which then ends up spilling over into his relationship with his son which it shouldnít have and I back slide to try and save that. I shouldnít have for itís not my fault that he feels the way he does about the whole parent thing and that they werenít willing to do that. And then he takes it out on his son and blames me. Not cool. So I am up at 11 at night talking to a 10 year about how his dad loves him and how he didnít mean to lass out at him. That he was mad at me and took it out on him when he shouldnít have. Of course the 10 year old is a smart little cookie and tells me that itís not my fault and that I shouldnít have to apologize for his dadís actions. And heís right his dad is an adult if he canít keep his emotions in check and not lass out at others when it didnít have anything to do with them I shouldnít take the guilt of it. So back slide a little there. But I have since picked myself back up from my boot straps, dusted off and the foot is back down and ready to be inserted if needed in someoneís @$$.
Eating has been good, I have a buddy who texts me a few times a day reminding me not to eat junk food. Which is a good reminder for her as well. Exercising is going well, I am back on a schedule for Zumba and have been trying to get a few bike rides too, along with my running. Summer will be done before I know it and Iíve only gotten out on the water a few times this year, which is more than last year. Hoping when the office moves back to the area I live that next summer it will be more times out on the water and maybe a new jet ski too.