Thursday, August 09, 2012
I've been reading _The End of Overeating_, and so far I've been disappointed. The first several sections of the book were about the tricks that food processing companies use to get you to eat more - using a combination that is difficult to resist of sugar, fat, and salt, and sometimes chemicals that mimic all kinds of flavors. When I was reading these chapters all I wanted to do was eat more sugar, fat and salt! Counterproductive. Now I've finally reached the behavior modification section of the book in the back, and I'm not done yet, but it's been really nonspecific. It says that you need to develop rules for yourself that govern your eating, such as "I don't eat French fries," or "I don't eat dessert." I don't see how rules like that will help me stop overeating. Maybe the last bit of the book will be more helpful, but I'm not optomistic.
I've been finding it extremely difficult to motivate myself to count calories or restrict my eating at all. Even after my last blog with a few specific rules I didn't follow through. I've gone out and bought size 12 summer pants because my 10s don't fit. I'm hoping that maybe writing about it will get me moving again.
As always, I HAVE been pretty good about exercise lately, espeically my strength training. I haven't been to Body Pump in a long time...I've been out in the strength room with the big burly guys. I realized recently that I squat more than my own bodyweight...185lbs. I'm moving up with almost all my weights except for biceps and shoulders, which are my two weakest areas where I seem to always plateau at the lowest of weights. I'm not as consistent with cardio as I should be in order to lose weight, but I have been getting some cardio in.
In some ways I've been too complacent about my weight. I think it would probably take a photo (but I've been avoiding cameras whenever possible) or some horrible mirror angle to snap me into reality and make me realize I need to do something. I see the big numbers on the scale but don't think I look that bad. I also have been just a teensy bit obsessed (okay, tremendously obsessed) with TTC (which isn't working so far...), and kind of just lethargic lately. It's like I spend all my energy at the gym and don't save any for other stuff, like coming up with a better eating plan.
Today is my last day of work for a while, so I have time to come up with a plan to get back on track. It better be a good one, because I really need it.