Wednesday, August 08, 2012
So, I was doing great.....and then my b-day hit. I figured "hey, it's my birthday, I deserve it!" Bad me! So, I gained weight almost instantly (water from sodium, but still) and I got into the mentality that I am fine the way I am, why should I change, society should, blah-de-blah. Then came the cookies. I LOVE baking, just for the fun! I am proud of myself for resisting to the best of my abilities. I ate only half of what I would have before, if that! But, alas, my butt and thighs don't care if I show a little restraint, lol! Sooo, I got back up to 290, and I felt sooooo horrible. I started doing better, just eating less, but not tracking. Got down to 281, but, then came the poptarts! THEY SUCK!! 410 cals for 1 package? WTH?! Up to 289 I go! Anyways, started watching my cal intake yesterday and already lost 4lbs. Prolly just water, but it counts! I have also been put on Metformin for my PCOS. Hopefully it will help my metabolism. I just loooove having PCOS AND hypothyroidism.....it's a joy! Can you feel my sarcasm? Anyways, I hope I am getting back on the right track, because I need this for my health; physical, mental and emotional. I do not DESERVE food, I need it to SURVIVE. "Eat to live, not live to eat", to quote Dinotopia, lol! OH! I even colored my hair my fave color as motivation! PURPLE!! It is fun, but my shower looks like I massacred pink, blue and purple care bears!!