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Knowing when you have bested your opponent...

Wednesday, August 08, 2012

Or at least delivered a good blow...

I seem to perpetually feel behind in my weight loss journey. No matter what I do I feel like it is not good enough or that it is only temporary and the next time I look I will be over 300lbs again.

Maybe it's the "again" in the last sentence that makes me feel this way?

The sense of deja vu is strong as I lose weight. When I feel any amount of satisfaction at my success - it’s immediately followed by frustration and sadness as I remember…

I’ve been here before (a couple of times).

But I have to just keep looking forward and believe I can accomplish a healthy lifestyle and it will stick this time around.

I mean I am on Day 68 of an exercise streak, have lost over 62lbs and feel great about myself!

I might not have bested my opponent yet but I have definitely delivered a good blow!

I have started a running training schedule and I have actually decided to do the Marine Corp Marathon on October 28th. (I still have my Richmond race in November but have signed up for the MCM race for 3 years in a row and have never actually gone).

I basically have been giving donations to the race and the charity I sign up with…well this time I will be at the starting line!

Since it is literally right down the street from me I decided to go ahead and do it! Plus I am on track to be 228lbs by then – which is the weight I did my first marathon at!!!

So I am committed to running all 48 runs on my training schedule and getting it done! I will need to maintain a 14 minute pace to “beat the gauntlet” (basically a bridge that makes up a busy part if the interstate between DC & VA that opens after a certain time frame- it’s around mile 16 and if I make it there in time I can slow down to a 16 minute pace and finish the race- if not you are put on a bus…I really want to at least beat the gauntlet and make it to the end!)

I currently have been running- on average- a 15 minute pace…so it’s doable and I’m excited to train!!!

Training run 1 out of 48- 3 mile run/walk 45:35 time- felt good for most of the run and then backed off to a fast walk to finished it up.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
CHRISTINASP 9/26/2012 3:36AM

    I can relate to that feeling like it's not good enough... butI also tend to see that as some ugly beast that REALLY should not be let into our home! :) We need to chase it back into the woods where it came from!
I hope you WILL be able to feel satisfaction. Because I think it's a huge accomplishment in itself that you were able to lose so much weight. Never mind if you kept it off. There are many people who don't even BEGIN with the kind of efforts you're making. Be proud of yourself... you deserve it.

Comment edited on: 9/26/2012 3:37:02 AM

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ENDUROVET 9/10/2012 9:05PM

    Sounds like a great plan; I need to pick some sort of destination half for myself since I've ready to hit da streets again & see if my feet hold up!

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PINKNFITCARLA 8/8/2012 11:42PM

    Good for you!

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BEECHNUT13 8/8/2012 10:01PM

    This time will be different! You can do it!

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RADFEN 8/8/2012 5:43PM

    emoticon Races are great motivators!

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QUAIL75 8/8/2012 4:06PM

    You can do it! emoticon emoticon

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PAMATX 8/8/2012 3:39PM

    You are doing fantastic! Believe! 68-day streak? You are on fiah!

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TATTER3 8/8/2012 2:50PM

    Keep Sparkin'!!

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SHRINK_U 8/8/2012 2:33PM

    You can do it.. you have come so far :)

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JOLEON 8/8/2012 2:15PM

    Your going through a time of transition and you sound like your insecure about staying on the right track but just remember you have lost 62lbs and your training. For a marathon. You are going to reach your goal your positivity and enthusiasm to succeed proves that to me.

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LETYAK 8/8/2012 1:16PM

    you got this!! positive motivation coming your way!

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    You will succeed with the planning and preparation you are putting into this marathon. I understand what you mean about the fears. Just stay positive and remember that any weight lost won't come back over night. Everything must be taken one day at a time.

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DEBBIELCG 8/8/2012 12:39PM

    keep at it and you will succeed.

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CODEMAULER 8/8/2012 12:35PM

    What a terrific goal; this is TOTALLY within your reach!!


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WANT2BEFIT10 8/8/2012 12:30PM

    I KNOW you can do this! Keep moving forward, stay positive, and you've got this!

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