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I am doing this for me.

Wednesday, August 08, 2012

The more I workout the more I realize. All this is for me. Every run, every abb crunch. This is all for my benefit. It hurts like hell, and I want to pass out everyday. But this is for me. So I have to remember this blog is for me as well.

Today I have mixed emotions about lots of things. In general I feel happy. But I am pretty sad about my weight loss. I want this to happen quickly but I doubt that will happen. I am stressed out because I am in the middle of applying for jobs, and trying to find a car. Its all very stressful and those Doritos in my cupboard are looking more and more delicious.

I am also leaving my comfy little love bubble in a month and I am pretty upset about it. I will miss him and I am worried that will hinder my weight loss further. Ho Hum. I am doing this for me...I just have to keep remembering that. Every drip of sweat is one step closer to my goal. I feel lost and just the thought that I am doing this for myself.

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SPARKABELLA13 8/8/2012 12:01PM

    YOU are so worth it!!!!!


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    Man, that was the hardest thing for me to realize.

At first I was doing this so I could look a certain way...
Then I was doing this so that I could run in the 5K and later half-marathons with co-workers.

Now I realize - I'm doing this for me. Because every single time I better my lap times or see the scale even go .10 pounds down, it's because I made it do that and it's my own personal reward.

Keep your head on straight - because your attitude is right where it's supposed to be.

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    Do you journal or meditate? These things always help me when I'm in a transition phase. Also having a mantra is helpful. Let me know if you need anything!

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