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Tuesday, Aug. 7, 2012 - Is It Possible? Will It Settle?

Tuesday, August 07, 2012

Wow, how plans change, life changes, challenges. I sometimes wonder if it is possible that I will ever lose any weight or am I doomed with being FAT forever until I go to my grave.

Tomorrow, I need to get up, take shower, head to gym. I then need to finish cleaning/getting us packed up. I am officially done with the bankruptcy...discharge was 8/1. House is scheduled for auction 8/24, but who knows. My hubby has been working because one of the guys retired. The job in Cali is delayed.

We went to retirement party on Saturday. I decided to bring watermelon because it was HOT and it would be healthy. Well, turned out, I wasn't the only one thinking of health. There was a large bowl of mixed fruit, blueberries, strawberries, cantelope, melon dew. Someone brought a flat of raspberries and a flat of blackberries. There was homemade macaroni shrimp salad and red potato salad. They boiled chicken then put on the grill to warm and BBQ. There was, of course, hamburgers and hot dogs too. I was truly amazed at all of the wonderful food. I kept my swelling down. I did swell a little due to the heat but went into creek and put feet in and by evening back down.

I really really wonder if it is possible. Today I was really LAZY. I was LAZY on Monday too. I feel like I am in a funk the past two days.

Ok, partly, I have no furniture except my couch which is our bed too. It is only thing to sit/lay on. We have an air mattress on it. I have the tv and my computer. The house is pretty empty. I need to do some cleaning, but I hate getting dressed and doing stuff, then coming to our bed...or sit on...I like to be in my clean pj's if that makes sense. Anyways, no plans, hubby at work, it is perfect recipe for not going anywhere or doing anything. I am not letting the funk last because I CAN'T...IT JUST CAN'T HAPPEN. I am going to GYM tomorrow morning.

I did go to the gym the other day and was amazed that I was able to go 1 hour on the elipical on level 3.

I did walk the neighborhood one day. Now, I am off to watch some tv.
Sparking has been difficult because my internet is so so slow. I wonder if I will ever get settled in a motel, or where it be. My hubby and I decided that we are going to save every penny to purchase a motorhome. Yep, want to find a motorhome in good shape that we can get for a good price (cheap) so maybe can live in it and go to cali in it. that would be a dream come true.

I really want a motorhome to have for a home. It would be a dream come true.
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  • K1TT3N
    Hope everything looks up for you been there and lost my house two years ago. It was hard but i can tell you it gets a littler better all the time
    2031 days ago
    Hope things are going well and it was good to hear from you nadine! Keep up the good work!
    2044 days ago
    Wishing you the best.
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    Comment edited on: 8/8/2012 1:17:32 AM
    Hang in there. I hope you find a good motor home that is in great condition and at a great price. emoticon
    2048 days ago
    Sending all good vibes I can - it seem like tough times.

    One good thing with starving like I do now is that no money at all is wasted - if I could stay away from complusive eating and binge eating a lot of money would be saved.
    2048 days ago
    Hang in there. The weight is not going to drop off at once. I wish it would but we didnt gain it all in one day so it will take twice as long for it to go away. Just keep doing what you are doing and you will soon see a difference. I myself am going through the same issues. I take it off little by little and it never seems that I am losing. I go by the scale but my husband tell me to go by what I look like in my clothes. It helps but I would like to see the scale go down also.
    2048 days ago
  • JO88BAKO
    Hang in there. Pray. Keep the hope and don't give up. We live in the midwest. I loved the ocean since I was in 6th grade. I was in my 30's before I really got to see it. For over 30 years we talked, wondered and dreamed about having a home there. 2 weeks ago we closed on a home there. Dreams do come true. Sometimes life is overwelming. Good luck. I hope you get your motorhome. In the meantime, go to the gym. One good choice at a time. You can do it!!
    2048 days ago
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