"Nothing changes unless something changes"

I am so trying to take this to heart. 6 weeks of the same weight. Ugh. Have I been super-on program? No. So, I can't be completely "not at fault". But, I would have expected SOME kind of change.

Yes, my clothes fit better.
Yes, my attitude and energy is better.
No, I don't feel better.

It is my birthday on Friday. I set a goal for my birthday and I am now 5 pounds away from that goal. The thing is, that goal was supposed to be "achievable". One pound per week. Just one measly, miserly, stupid pound. And, I've wasted 6 of them.

So, something has to change. I'm getting there. I did a 3 mile run this morning. A 50 lap swim in my 15x30 oval pool. A terribly hard ab workout last night. I hurt. I can feel abs in places I didn't know I had abs. I feel out of breath, just a little. Seriously, today I kicked my own butt. (And ate 3 cookies, but they were really, really good) But, I think that the butt kicking and the cookies were both good for me. Reminded me of why I am doing this - not just to look hot in a bathing suit. But to enjoy life.

Oh, and about that bathing suit...I ordered a new one from Old Navy. It so does NOT look hot on me. Pretty close to hot, but maybe closer to "trying to fit into last year's swim suit". Sigh. Guess I'll be paying full price, again, come January. But, I'd rather pay $100 for a bikini that looks awesome than $20 for "sigh".