Tuesday, August 07, 2012
I started out alright this morning. I had a banana for breakfast on my way out the door. (It wasn't enough; I was too hungry too soon. I need to work on better breakfasts.) I went to lunch with some colleagues around 12:45. It should have all worked out. I picked the restaurant, and I researched before what I was going to order. I had a delicious-sounding salad all picked out.
And then we got to the restaurant. I didn't like the salad as much as I had hoped I would. I was still pretty hungry. Disaster struck again! I ended up with a 1300 calorie lunch (the pasta was delicious... for the first couple of bites), including the restaurant's signature rice krispie treat, for around 500 calories.
Which brings me to my point: I do this all the time. If the going gets too tough, something inside of me breaks, and I eat more than I would have even if I were off-program. It's like I'm so afraid of failing, and so done with trying, that I eat what I know will be over my goals just to ensure my own failure. That way I don't have to keep fighting. That mental block seems to bring me down every time, no matter how long I go before I hit it.
So this is me fighting the voice inside of me that doesn't want me to succeed. I am stronger than you. This is my body, and my decision. My health is my business. You have no right to tell me what I can and can't do. My new mantra? "I am strong enough. I can succeed in meeting my healthy lifestyle goals. This is MY CHOICE."
But I could still really use your advice. How do I make it past this mental roadblock?