Monday, August 06, 2012
My last blog was in October of 2010. A lot has changed in my life since then. I was diagnosed with cancer in November of 2010. My life seemed to spiral out of control. I had taken my mother to get her mammogram and decided to get mine at the same time. It was mom I was concerned for. Had her cancer come back? Was she going to be able to fight it again?
No she did not have cancer again but I now had cancer! They were almost positive just by reading the mammogram. The biopsy happened in December. Yes it was cancer and no they did not get it all in the biopsy. The good news was that it was a slow growing type. The bad news is that it was the size of a hot dog bun in circumference and half the length. This meant another operation but not before some more test to make sure it had not spread. Not before seeing a plastic surgeon to plan a reduction and a reconstruction. Not before seeing a radiologist oncologist. Not before seeing an oncologist. Everything was then in place. Then the big operation. Lymph nodes taken and then the wait. Was there clear margins this time? Were the nodes clear of cancer or had it spread to them?
But while I waited I had to have another surgery a week later. Then nodes came back clean and yes there is a clear margin!!! Yes, now to regain my strength and take control of my life again! But no, not yet! An infection sets in! Another stay in the hospital that is even longer than after the mastectomy and reconstruction. They cant seem to clear it up with medication so its under the knife again! Then just when I think it is starting to heal I find a new lump! It very painful! Another infection? Cancer? Under the knife again to find out! No caner, No infection! Its scar tissue build up that is pushing into a nerve.
I had all the emotions. FEAR Anger, self pity, depression. The weight came on.
Well all that is behind me now! I am LUCKY! I am alive and have decided to live! I am eating healthy and exercising! I treasure every day that I can spend with my family. OOOOh yeah there was just a biopsy a week ago today! No cancer just fatty scar tissue! I am on a plateau right now! Who cares? This isn't about the scale! Its about me being alive to live a healthy life!