I am working to organize some stuff in my home. I am working to get things together to go back to work when school starts in the fall. I am spending some time thinking as things change with my children. I am pondering exactly what I want and how to be a better mother, better wife and better self all around.

I love to make good food for my family. I hope that they will enjoy a meal. I have kind of lost what I like I "just" make what we will eat. You know I can choose to adapt part of the meal to meet my dietary needs. I can teach them to eat healthier. I can do a lot of different choices. I don't have to ignore my health to get food on the table for the family.

I love letting the kids do whatever. I also tend to get depressed or overwhelmed when the mess of the house is too much. I am learning to ask for them to help with the cleaning. I can take away TV and such. Some of the older ones I have to just hope they will do what I have asked. But, they make less messes too. I am trying to teach my little ones that chores if worked will not take forever.

I am not sure why I am feeling lost. But I am also learning that my habits do a lot to make me feel more found. To ground me in today so i am not picking on what I did not get done yesterday or what I have to do tomorrow.

I can just work with today and get where I want to go.