Monday, August 06, 2012
The only thing that is going to get me back on track is a frontal labotomy. I am so discouraged with myself. I dont have the willpower to get off my lazy fanny to workout. I make every excuse in the book. I fluctuate between 197-205. Eating dont even get me started I wont stop. I will eat until I am sick. Stomach hurts, feel bloated, cant move feel like I am going to throw up. The alarm goes off at 1:30am and I reset until 2:30. Exhaustion hits after work at 3pm I sit and veg out. Tonite half of my dishes got done. Trust me I know its all lazy stupid excuses. If anyone has any advice, if this has happened to you or someone you know I would love to hear from you. I have a appointment with a therapist monday. I know depression is part of it. That seems so far away. Everyone here is so great with words. I appreciate it.
Besides it sounds very uncomfortable too pull your brain out oh a nostril with a grilling fork.