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Frontal Labotomy

Monday, August 06, 2012

The only thing that is going to get me back on track is a frontal labotomy. I am so discouraged with myself. I dont have the willpower to get off my lazy fanny to workout. I make every excuse in the book. I fluctuate between 197-205. Eating dont even get me started I wont stop. I will eat until I am sick. Stomach hurts, feel bloated, cant move feel like I am going to throw up. The alarm goes off at 1:30am and I reset until 2:30. Exhaustion hits after work at 3pm I sit and veg out. Tonite half of my dishes got done. Trust me I know its all lazy stupid excuses. If anyone has any advice, if this has happened to you or someone you know I would love to hear from you. I have a appointment with a therapist monday. I know depression is part of it. That seems so far away. Everyone here is so great with words. I appreciate it.
Besides it sounds very uncomfortable too pull your brain out oh a nostril with a grilling fork.
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    Thank you for your advice. I definitely appreciate it.
    2026 days ago
    Depression is definitely something that's difficult to overcome, so it's good to see a therapist and figure out how you can find a way through this difficult time.

    As for motivation, forget trying to change everything and doing it perfectly. Doing that will cause your body to rebel every time. Just like your brain doesn't want to give up habits easily, your body doesn't like major changes and will fight against drastic changes. Instead, make small changes, a few at a time, and let them add up. After a few weeks those small changes will become habit then you can choose a few more changes to focus on. A few small changes to start with are things like adding an extra 200 steps a day, exercising for just 10 minutes, leaving 3 bites left on your plate. choosing an extra serving of fruit or veggies and half as much dessert, etc. If leaving 3 bites was about 30 less calories, then 4 meals a day over 30 days is 3600 calories less - which is 1 lbs of fat less just by leaving 3 bites at every meal!

    2026 days ago
    hope the doctor helps. some are better than others at focusing on the important bits. I've been at the lazy, do nothing but eat place myself. found out it was perimenopause, especially after the hot flashes from hell hit.
    2026 days ago
    I hear ya. I went through this the last two years of my life. If you think that it's depression then it probably is or a huge factor at least. It was my doctor, who happens to be a distant cousin, so he knows me pretty well. Anyway it was he who had to tell me that I was dealing with depression. He changed my life. I have lost 40 lbs since being diagnosed with chronic depression. It only gets better with each day. You are on the right track with seeing a professional. Good luck.
    2026 days ago
    Wow, I wish I could wave a magic wand and take you past depression. What I do know is that if you get some help and it really works, it can help put everything into perspective. My daughter went through a horrible depression about a year and a half ago. She ended up taking some anti depressants for about a year, and then tapered off. What the doctor found out is that she was extremely deficient in Vit D, so once everything was in balance again, her world started fitting back together.

    Oh the eating front, I have been there and done that, way too many times. It is always so disheartening to see all your hard work go down the drain. But we can always make the choice to change. Every day is a new beginning, and then once you have one day behind you, there is the next day. If a day is too much to cope with at one time, then just take everything moment by moment. I remember that when I first joined Spark, I read a blog that someone wrote that success is just about making intelligent choices. I was so impressed that it could all be that simple. And what I have found out is that it is that simple, the hard part is carry through on the good choices and not acting on the bad choices.......

    Thanks for stopping by my blog. I hope tomorrow is a better day! emoticon
    2026 days ago
  • MACMOM57
    That does sound painful. I hear you about the lazy part. I get so nice use to not doing a thing. The have a tantrum and do better terrible cycle. Keep working hard you will get.this is a awesome place for support. Good luck with you appt.
    2026 days ago
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