Monday, August 06, 2012
Well, I've had my first fall off the wagon. My husband was off work all last week on vacation, and it really threw me off kilter having him home 24-7. Of course I enjoyed his company, but it was very hard watching him eat all those fattening foods, and eventually I caved in started eating them too. It didn't help that we had a host of celebrations to attend, which meant even more bad foods (and lots of cake). To top it all off, we spent the weekend out of town visiting family, and they also treated us to some of the yummiest, but also fattening, soul food I've ever eaten. I did manage to stick to my daily 10 minute exercise streak, but the end result was a 3 lb gain, meaning I am now back up to 260.
I ended up with a strong wake up call early Saturday morning. I woke up in at 2:30 in the morning with severe chest pains. They scared my so bad, that I decided to go to the hospital. They kept me there for a couple of tests, but thankfully it turned out to be a case of acid reflux. Although it was scary at the time, I am so thankful for the experience, because it really opened up my eyes to how bad those greasy foods were to my body. I guess all the healthy eating I've done over the last two months has desensitized my body to all the unhealthy stuff, and it just couldn't the overload. I really got to see some of the results of those bad foods on my body.
The good part of this experience is that my spark has been re-lit. I am so motivated to get back up into the saddle and keep pressing on towards my goal. I am NOT going to accept anything less than complete success. I am sorry that I veered off course, but also so proud that I didn't let me quit completely. The old Jovita would have just said, "Oh well, might as well give up completely now", and would have been so ashamed that she would probably not even come back to SP to update, and just never log in again. But this new me knows that I'm not perfect, and its not about being perfect all the time anyway, but its about being healthier, living longer, and having a more productive and satisfying life. I am not going to let this deter me, and I KNOW I'm going to have an awesome week!