Monday, August 06, 2012
How many times do I have to experience that it is all about the food?
Yesterday I stayed with my plan - that happened to be not to eat at all - and this morning I woke up in a great mood. I did other good things yesterday too, paid my bills, cleaned the kitchen and organized some stuff - but that was from the energy I got from not abusing food.
If I exercise, clean, organize etc. etc - it does affect my mood a little but not entirely. As food does. When I stick to my plan life is great and I feel optimistic even if I see problems. Like yesterday - paying those bills left me with hardly any money left for the rest of the month but I felt that I could handle that easily because next payday there are no great mortgage or bills so that month I will hopefully be back in balance after pasying my accountant and the lawyer.
And looking over the economy I remembered that I did sell my sheep clipper for a lot of money two days ago...but... I was going for a bike tour and thought it was stupid to leave the money laying around iif somebody woiuld break in during my absence. So I hid them - and I have absolutely no idea where!. This money will be enough for gas until next payday. I have wandered round the house and hoped that my memory would wake up if I stand in front of the right closet or open the right drawer or move around the right room... but no. I have not the faintest idea where I hid that money.
So my house will be very cleaned in the upcoming week. Soon I will take doggy on a long morning walk and then I will drive daughter to circus camp and stay there for five hours. Then I will pass the gym on my way home and do strength training - and then I will continue to look for that money..,. daughter will sleep at the camp. I will continue with no food another day, I tried the mcKenna tapping procedure yesterday and it seemed to work. I did not have that bad cravings, I was really hungry instead!
I also used my tarot decvk of cards to decide if I would do that kamikaze food thing or not (remember I am learning the tarot for an act with "my" circus?)
It clearly told me that I will succeed both with staying away or eating healthy - so I will stay away for today and then start to plan a very healthy menu for the rest of the week.