Sunday, August 05, 2012
Right now I am in an upswing, that is what I call the days I feel like myself. I am happy, annoyingly so, I am positive, I can do anything, nothing overwhelms me, I can accomplish any goal by looking at things one by one. Its weird how your mind plays with your body, when I am positive everything hurts less! I am not hungry. I can eat normal portion sizes and be ok.
On other days, I am the complete opposite. Everything hurts, I am easily overwhelmed, I am negative. On these days, I know I just need to stop, breathe, everything will be fine, but it is like the negativity is compulsive.
The one thing I do know, is that I deserve to be healthy. Working out helps me get out of a funk. I know I have to do it every day. If I don't feel like working out, I need to at least move, go up and down the stairs several times.
I am a serious type A, I need everything in its place and organized. I have to do the same with my diet and exercise, it keeps me honest and on track. I know I will get there. I didn't gain the weight overnight, I won't lose it that way either, and that is OK.