Friday, August 03, 2012
So, it's been a challenging time.
Was trying to buy a condo; failed. The seller turned out to be sort of a loony, and decided to back out a week before we were supposed to close. The whole process was completely stressful, and the end product was seriously depressing. I've been wrapped up in this for months, it's been a total emotional roller coaster. Only to have it end up that I'm stuck in my apartment for another year.
The stress set off my reflux, which made eating no fun whatsoever. And hey - got my period for the first time in a year and a half two weeks ago (and it proceeded to last two weeks), so I'm guessing that on the whole, my body is pretty unhappy with me.
I have not been tracking my food. I have not been making wise food choices.
I've been pretty miserable. And tired. And feeling defeated by the limitations on what I can eat, especially given that I don't know how to cook, and quite frankly, have no real desire to learn.
I've gained about 10lbs back from my original Jenny Craig loss. I keep yo-yoing from there (169) to 190; currently holding in the low 180's. And since my goal is 140, I'm not exactly heading in the right direction.
One of my Sparkfriends is a proponent of (and distributor for) Body By Vi, and it appeals. I know that using a shake to lose
One of my Spark friends is a proponent of Body By Vi, which has appeal. I mean, I know that a shake probably isn't the healthiest of all food options. But at least as a kick-start to get me on the right track again, it seemed like a good plan. But even though I've been told they extract isoflavones (whatever those are) from their product, the fact that it's a soy product makes me very nervous. I have hypothyroidism. I'm not looking to exacerbate that condition. So I did a hunt online today, and found that Herbalife (a competitor, I guess) has an allergy-free formula - no soy, no gluten, no lactose. That sounds pretty perfect. But I can find almost no reviews.
I'm not expecting a quick fix to my weight problem. I know it doesn't work like that; lifestyle choice, have to commit, have to exercise, drink your water, etc. I'm just looking for a way to get nutrition, really. Food matters very little to me; when I'm forced with the decision to grill up a chicken breast and scrounging through the Deli drawer for some American cheese and hard salami, I'm going to pick the cold cuts every time because they're easy, they taste yummy, and they're comforting. I didn't INTEND to go back to old habits, but... well, that's why they call them habits, innit?
Dunno what I'm really expecting, here. I've been gone for ages, and I come back whining when I know most of the people on here have it way worse than I do. But... well, I'm whining, anyway. And asking for advice. Preferably of the honest variety, rather than the distributor-trying-to-sell-me-
Hope everyone's having a great summer.