After Aqua Zumba I went home and thought about God rest his soul (Micheal Jackson) His song about the man in the mirror. I see the woman in the mirror and she looks back at me. The thoughts attached to that woman have changed over and over again. She has been through all spectrum of the rainbow as far as emotions are concerned.She has been rejected, misfit, outsider, temporarily popular, spiritedly funny, rejected, ridiculed, admired, abhorred,greatly loved,overanxious, hopeful, hopeless, abused, and loved to great lengths by strangers...She has been over the mountain and through the hills in love,in lust , in trouble, in denial, in hiding, in the public eye, beneath the rocks and above the clouds.

I wonder how long it takes the mind to catch up to all the emotional and physical changes the body goes through? For instance like when you are extremely mad it takes time, and deep breaths, and whatever else it make take YOU to calm down. What lagging to bring all those emotions down is it the mind or the body? If there are any experts out there I would truly be engaged by your answer.

This woman, has been lost many times over and found by lovers,by liars, by musicians, by artist,by churches,by foes, and by friends, by my husband, and above all found by God. He didn't lose me but I had lost Him and in my thoughts to lose yourself is to lose Him within yourself because He abides in you and that great power to love that breaks the chains of evil also abides in You!

I see that woman she is me....She has shift shaft into so many forms but she is me and though my shape is taking form on the outside it was just my body showing signs of everything i have undergone on the inside. So as I take the time, To go through the motions of creating the life I want amidst of the economy and all of the strikes against me. I know that I will make it. I am pleased with the fighting woman I have become and I am beautiful.

Food for thought: How often do you truly look in the mirror? and are you happy with what you see?

Its 2012 and its time to shed some weight lose the regret, pain, shame, and disappointment of yesterday for a better today!