Sunday my family and I have to go to a birthday party in dayton and they are having pozole which is made with chicken or pork and with hominy (big corn balls) and i guess its not to bad for you if it is made with chicken but if the lady decides to make it with pork it is going to be real fatty and greasy. It's not like you can just eat a little bit because mexican portions are huge! my husband who is 150 pounds can eat 12 tacos at one setting and 3 bowls of pozole. lets just say that a bowl that can fit a whole large cantoloupe in it cut up is one bowl of pozole. I can never finish one bowl. maybe half. and then if you don't finish they are offended so i usaully give it to my husband to finish. but I'm just not looking forward to eating it at all because i really want to stick with my diet this week because i gained a pound last week. and i dont want to eat tres leches cake again. i told my husband i will not eat the cake and just tell them that tres leche cake makes me sick because of all the milk... and i think i have to bring my own water which is even ruder to do. i only seen his cousins twice and this is the first time i will be going to there house and i dont want to be rude. i guess i will just have to be and put up with it and call it good. i mean after all the diet is for me. but i told my husband i will not drink any beer because that would really cause weight problems. pretty much whatever they give you, you eat no matter what. but i will just have to make some excuse up because if you tell them that you are trying to lose weight and you dont want to eat it they feel bad that they dont really have anything for you or they just laugh at you and so whatever and if you dont succeed at the diet within the next month they just talk about you. well atleast thats what my husbands friends (other poeple that are not going to be there) did to me. owell. I dont know maybe i am just nervous about it and meeting them again and trying to fit in. I just feel so uncomfortable around alot of people period even if its around my whole family i cant stand to be in the middle. now im going to be around alot of people that i really dont know i met some of them several times but it still doesnt help. a few beers always helps but im not going to do that its not worth gaining another pound. i will just have to do my best and put up with it. and maybe i can go on a walk after wards.