Ugh - Frustrated again
Friday, August 03, 2012
I am in such a weird mood today. I am easily annoyed (good thing my husband left for work or we would probably be divorced by the end of the day), don't feel like doing anything (working out, work, cleaning, even just sitting), and am really frustrated with myself.
Things I think can be contributing:
I just got a 2nd job because we are still having money issues and started yesterday.
My weight is fluctuating between 171 and 177. But I am not sure what is going on. I feel like i'm losing control.
The weather really sucks. I hate having the air on instead of my windows open.
I only have $20 until I get paid again on the 15th.
I know how to fix it - I want to run. I want to go for a run and really let my frustration out. But, MY DARN ANKLE IS SCREWED UP AGAIN! I think I'm going to have to go back to the arthritis doctor and start getting shots. I am so scared of needles so I've been putting it off.
I always tell people to make a list of good things when they are down so I'm going to try that.
Even with the poopy economy I have two jobs and my husband is employed.
My husband is supportive of my journey and doesn't judge me at all when I slow down.
I was complimented by a stranger on my cute hair yesterday.
I have lost a 1.5 inches in my arms and actually have muscles!
Last weekend I did 13.1 miles in 3:38. Now I don't have to panic about my half marathon coming up in October. I am not sure how much training I'll be able to do with the new job on the weekends.
It's not like I'm going to up and quit today because I don't think I can go back to how I was living. I feel so much better most of the time and love being able to do the stairs and not get winded. UGH.