Friday, August 03, 2012
Right now, I'm feeling insane amounts of pressure. Pressure to be a great mom, pressure to still work and bring in some money despite being a full-time caregiver (until September), pressure with deadlines and clients who want me to be 100% there all the time despite my being a full-time mom for another month. Pressure from family to visit and take care of their needs. Pressure from aforementioned family members to stay at home when I NEED TIME TO WORK and there is no other option but to put Keira in daycare three days a week. Pressure to get up to 13 miles in just about 8 weeks now when 4 miles is a struggle. Pressure to get this weight off when it just doesn't wanna.
So the accountability challenge isn't working for me, sadly. I could say I'm a failure, and sure, that's accurate in some sense, but something has gotta give and for me it's being so strict and harsh with myself.
The goal now?
Run 3x a week, don't eat so much junk, don't drink during the week, drink lots of water, and try to remain calm and positive.
That's all I can do...