I worked out like a maniac this morning. Did great with my eating until I got home. Ate a healthy dinner that my husband made. Veggie burgers and steamed mixed veggies. Also had a Special K protein water to fill me up. Yes I was full but that did not stop me from sabotaging my day. After eating I wanted something salty and crunchy, had peanuts, but no I did not stop there. I had 4 or 5 tablespoons of peanut butter and 1/2 a Hershey dark chocolate bar. I don't know if its stress, lack of sleep or because I'm Pmsin but I keep messing up every day. Maybe I try to hard? Maybe I should not worry so much about tracking my calories but focus more on what I'm eating?

Another issue is I have not been bringing my lunch to work like how I used to. I pack my gym clothes and I just don't have room in my bag for lunch. I don't want to be a bag lady and carry 20 different bags with me. I don't want a shoulder bag because it hurts my back and I don't want a bulky back pack. I just want to stay with my simple back pack. So every day at lunch I go out in search of healthy meal. I go to those buffet places because I can spend less than 5 bucks there and eat healthy. Today I had shrimp wit h broccoli for $4.50. That is dirt cheap because if you go order a shrimp and broc. in chinese rest. in manhattan that will cost you around 7 bucks. The problem is I get anxious and start thinkiong about all those people who were breathing germs on my food. Also I start to wonder who prepared my meal and what is really in my food. Am I crazy?

This weekend I am going food shopping. Going to buy healthy snacks and lots of fruits. I'm just so tired of salads. I need to find new recipes, try something different.