Thursday, August 02, 2012
I realized something today...an 'epiphany' moment, I guess you could say. That I am in no more control of my mindless eating than a sleepwalker is of his dream. When I'm zoned out crunching on chip after chip...I am literally not aware of my hunger, just as a sleepwalker will walk or talk without conscious thought.
So, today the sleepwalker awakens. I am going to be fully aware of each and every thing that I put in my mouth. I'm not going to zone out and repetitively put hand to mouth, I am going to be aware of what I am doing..and why. Am I hungry? Yes. Eat. Am I hungry? No. Do something else. Am I full? Stop. Sounds simple really, but wow have I struggled with that concept. Right up until I read about the sleepwalker, then it all seemed to make sense.
You know how for years you struggle with math in school...it just doesn't make sense. It should, you know the basics, yet X never seems to equal Y. Then one day you get a math teacher and she shows you a way that you've never seen before, even though the information is the same, you suddenly "get it". Well today, I got it.
I'm not saying it's going to be easy, or that I'm not going to backslide. But, now I know that being awake is a whole lot better than being asleep when it comes to eating. Who is with me? WAKE UP my fellow sleepwalkers and let's do this together!!