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Positive Self Talk and a Question.

Thursday, August 02, 2012

I am trying to find myself. I know, very bohemian of me. You didn't even know I was lost. Well, aren't we all lost. I think the only people aren't are Buddhist monks.

I have lost a couple of pounds just by telling myself I'm pretty (joking, kind-of). Well and not gorging 8 times a day is also helping. Not that I am perfect at it.
I made chicken and rice stir-fry yesterday and ate enough rice to feed Calcutta.

I am trying to convince myself that that horrible sick feeling is why I don't over eat anymore.

Of course, I am also trying to add more fruit and veg into my diet, less sweets and soda.

Here is my question:

Why did I ever start eating routinely past full? It is painful, yet for most of my life I have ignored the pain in exchange for a few moments of tastebud pleasure.

And for that matter, why didn't I notice that it was painful and stop doing it?

Yesterday afternoon, my stomach hurt. I don't want to eat rice again for a long long time. Today my stomach aches, and I am telling myself that overeating is why and I will feel better if I don't overeat anymore. emoticon

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    I'm still trying to figure out when exactly it was that I lost myself...

    I think this is a very gradual process; it just kind of sneaks up on you. One bad decision piles on top of another and if you're not aware, 'cause you have a million other things happening in your life which require your immediate attention, voila, one fine day you find that things have gotten away from you and you wonder how and why.

    Awareness is key to fighting your way back. It takes positive changes and they come slowly.

    Come to think of it, trying to figure out when exactly you got lost is probably not even helpful. Who cares and what will it change?

    Focus can only be on today and getting it right today. Small successes build on each other, too, and that means you're on the right track.

    I'm glad you're back here, working on positive change.
    2050 days ago
    LOL. I have looked for myself as well but I remain illusive. Hopefully one of us will locate ourselves. We have no monks here to help.

    I tell myself I'm pretty too but when I do my chinchillas will make faces and fall off their shelves.

    At least rice is better for you than the things I over eat. I ate enough nuts yesterday to get a few squirrels through the winter.

    I have lost the ability to know when I'm full. I eat too fast. I'm trying to change that too.

    I hope we both can be good girls now.
    2053 days ago
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