Thursday, August 02, 2012
Friday, tomorrow, is the anniversary of my brother Jon's passing. He left us 4 years ago tomorrow. I have learned to not internalize my fear of showing grief any longer and if I cry, well, I cry! I know who I can count on to hear out my thoughts and lend hugs when needed, my close and dearest friends!!
I am just shy of losing 20 pounds on my journey to wellness and I think he'd be quite proud of me for my dedication and willpower! He'd say, "Way to go kiddo, I'm really proud you are doing this for yourself!" He always called me "kiddo." Miss him. But sorry food, you are no longer going to make me feel better about this, only time can help and the pain of this loss will never be gone, I just have to learn how to manage it and not let IT manage ME!