Wednesday, August 01, 2012
UGH. I'm not sure what happened. At some point this weekend, a switch was flipped and I've become an out-of-control carb-bingeing monster. I realize I'm still me, at every juncture, I still have a choice as to how I act, but it doesn't feel that way. I can't seem to stop STUFFING myself, often with the food as high in calories as one can find.
I just don't know how to "get back on track." I realize this isn't failure - this is information. It's information that what I was doing, though quite effective, is likely not sustainable. But how do I adapt? How do I stop this current pattern of behavior?
I'm open to suggestions, though I also feel quite disheartened and fairly pessimistic. I feel I've been down this road so many times, I want to find a way to break the cycle. This morning, I tried to focus on how I felt (sh*tty), as a way to motivate me to eat more healthfully. Somehow, I think treating myself poorly is part of the motivation. Some weird self-punishment.
That said, I am quite open to suggestions, but please don't bother adding anything unless you can truly relate and have better advice than, "just get over it."
Ugh. Sitting here with a bowl of cereal beside me - heaven forbid I be separated from my dear carbs for a micromoment!