Me, myself and I...

Wednesday, August 01, 2012

Going to ramble a bit here....
After I wrote my last blog, I really never found my way back to the healthy habits I had formed early in my journey. I realize that I have a very poor support system and perhaps that's a part of it. I have one friend that is my hero, my inspiration and she's only a text or phone call away if I need her. But she's almost an hour away. I would really love a local support system of people who understand what I'm battling and going through. Not skinny people who haven't a clue about how hard the emotional side of weight loss is. People tell me this site is great and it IS...however I have a very hard time connecting with people I can't see and I don't have the time to spend online developing unseen friendships. I could join Weight Watchers but I've done that in the past and have never been able to break into the established groups that already exist...and I don't want to spend my money every week hoping that might change! Then there is family. My husband is also overweight but seems to get "jealous" whenever I start losing weight or spending time exercising. I know he wants to lose weight too but I can only do this for me. My siblings are thin, have never been overweight and so do not understand my journey at all. It doesn't leave a lot of people and I'm not a person with a lot of friends. Over the years I have learned that "quantity" and "quality" are two very different things so I've chosen the quality people over the masses.
Which leaves me with this: I HAVE to do this on my own. I just do. I don't have a choice and I need to stop wanting/hoping/wishing that a support system will magically appear. Maybe one will, at some point, but in the's me, myself and I. I have done this in the past on my own and done it successfully. And in the end, it all falls to me anyhow. I make the choices and the decisions that dictate my life and it's outcome. No one else has the power in my life but me and I need to put on my big girl thong (no granny panties here, folks!) and take control of my health.
Today is August 1...what a perfect day to renew my vision for my life. And I have motivation, too. My daughter is off at bootcamp and won't be back till early December. Knowing that she is so far from home and going through all that basic training entails gives me the strength to focus and do this on my own. Plus, it would be nice to surprise her with a thinner, fitter mother when she gets back! I, myself and I. We can do this! Yes, yes we can...
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    When I first started on this journey my husband wasn't very supportive. I felt like he was trying to sabotage my diet. After several weeks things turned around. Now he's helping me read labels and pushing me further in my workouts. I know how you feel about being alone in this and all I can say is if you want to be healthy bad enough you have to push through. Maybe in time you will find a support system.
    1841 days ago
    Thanks, Stace and Sindy! Feeling positive today, it's just going to get a little bit to get me started again!

    1846 days ago
    I have so much faith in you... you fall and then you pick yourself up and do it all over. Not quitting is a bigger accomplishment than you think! xoxox Rock it out sister!!
    1847 days ago
  • SINDY01
    You can do it!!!
    1847 days ago
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