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Getting Back On Track

Wednesday, August 01, 2012

During the month of August I am going to focus on getting back on track and staying there. I have been on a steady climb back up to my all-time high and I have told myself that I am not going back there. I have felt the shame, the anger and the sadness associated with regaining the weight that I had previously lost.

At my TOPS meeting last night I walked in the doors with my head held low fearing another gain. I even contemplated quitting, even though, my username for SparkPeople says I am determined. I can't lose sight of that determination. I actually lost 2 pounds at my meeting and for the life of me I don't know how. I didn't argue with the verdict and although I walked into that meeting feeling so defeated, I left with such a positive attitude.

We had to set goals to reach by September 25, 2012. I chose 15 pounds thinking I had 14 weeks to do it in. Big mistake I thought, after realizing my mistake. I divided the 57 days by 4 instead of dividing it by 7, which would have given me 8 weeks instead. Self-doubt started to creep in. I wanted to take back my commitment to the group. but I had already turned in my slip of paper which I had written my goal. Then something in me said that I could do it. I actually started to believe that I could lose 7 1/2 pounds per month for the next two months. I realized that I could do it and I will do it. I will prove to myself that I am determined and that I am not quitter.

My positive attitude has once again returned. I found a groove today in which I can use to start getting back on track. Today has been a successful day both for my food intake and my exercise.
Although I may not be exercising like I want to be, I am at least making the effort and making progress.
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    You are making progress, step by step - congratulations. You CAN do it. Be proud of yourself, you are getting there, and when you slip back, your are learning from the setback. Well done and keep it going!
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    2057 days ago
    If there is anything I have learned from being on SParkPeople is that; We Can do It and I believe You can Do It.I have thought about looking into TOPS too,they have meetings just a few miles away.It's is not very expensive to join.Chin up and be proud for how hard you are trying.Successes can be measured many more ways than the scale and how much we lost. emoticon Believing is Key emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Diana
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    Comment edited on: 8/3/2012 9:38:38 PM
    Making the effort and making progress! Excellent!
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    2060 days ago
    Good for you for not giving up. You can do this. I look forward to seeing your blog after September 25 telling us you made your goal. Keep up the great work. We're here cheering you on.

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    I can definitely relate to what you are saying here. I am feeling shame, anger, and frustrated with myself. Last week, I had to take my Mom to the doctor on Thursday evening (my TOPS meeting day) and did not go to my meeting. I could have rushed around when I got back home and still made in to the meeting, but I stepped on my scale first and it showed that I had gained back the 3 1/2 pounds that I had lost the first two weeks of July. I told myself that that it could be water weight, and decided not to attend TOPS last week in hopes that I would lose it this week. Well, I haven't been able to stick to my program or exercise this week so I feel sure when I step on that scale tomorrow night it will show a gain. I too have been thinking maybe I should just quit, but I know that will lead to more of a defeated feeling and MORE weight gain.

    I am so glad you wrote this blog,
    2060 days ago
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