Wednesday, August 01, 2012
First of all I need to start out with a HUGE HUGE HUGE thank you to the Spark community for voting me a motivator and for all of the kind words and comments. Wow! I knew there was a reason I loved this place so much! Itís been quite a journey for me and Iím thankful for all of the times when Spark peeps have been there for me. Thank you thank you thank you!
Before I get into my goals, I wanted to talk a little bit about emotional eating Ė my Achilles heel!
Iíve never really cared about the Ďwhysí of my emotional eating. Nor have I ever really cared about the processes going on in my body when I was losing and gaining weight.
Iíve just never cared.
I just wanted to not be fat!
But we all know that you canít play the game very well if you donít know the rules. You canít change anything permanently if you donít understand your body and the weight loss process.
In my quest to learn about weight loss and triggers Iíve stumbled across some amazing resources. The first is a book by David Kessler called The End of Overeating. It appeals to my psychology background and his explanations about how we condition ourselves to overeat are really spot on. I havenít finished reading the whole book yet so I canít tell you his answers to ending overeating but so far, itís fascinating (though very dry and scientific in spots!). This book has made me realize another benefit of phentermine (disclaimer: all phentermine use should be supervised by a doctor that specializes in weight loss) is breaking that conditioning cycle of overeating. Which makes me think I might have a fighting chance at this after allÖ
As I have said before, I am very scared about gaining weight back. Knowing the odds are not in my favor, makes it seem like such a daunting task. So I decided that it was time to learn the rules to this game. No more pretending that they donít exist. No more head in the sand ostrich approach. I want to learn as much as I can about they Ďwhysí and hyperconditioning and figure out how to break this horrible, awful cycle of eating.
The biggest Ďahaí of my reading so far is that there is a biological and psychological basis for our overeating AND the food industry is absolutely working against our good health! As David Kissler says, restaurants have essentially created adult baby food Ė combos of fat on fat on sugar on salt on fat that just slide down our throats with very little chewing necessary. Yes, restaurants actually research how easily food slides down your throat! If itís easy to chew, you enjoy it more and subsequently eat more. Itís all a big old trap and itís no wonder we struggle to break this cycle!
So Iím going to learn everything I can about set points and the psychology about losing weight so I can understand the Ďwhysí. Iím going to read voraciously so that I know exactly what creates success and I am going to continue to work on breaking my emotional eating patterns. Food is fuel it does not make you feel better - despite what the Arby's commercial would like us to believe!
I am not going back!
If you are interested in doing your own reading, check these books out: The End of Overeating by David Kissler; Mindless Eating by Brian Wansink and Breakthrough Your Set Point by Blackburn and Corliss. All three of these books have some serious information Ė including this whopper that well all know is true: no diet will ever work because diets donít work. The only way to make lasting change is to break the patterns and habits we have created and change our lives for good.
Easy enough, right? Well given that Kissler cites research that the breaking point for food addiction is just slightly beneath that of cocaine, I would say we all have a huge battle ahead of us. And we canít just up and quit food.
But enough of that for now! Time for a little goal updating!!!!
In July I am going to do the following each week:
500 Mins of Exercise (for a total of 2000) MET! 2157!!!!
4 Yoga classes (for a total of 16) MET! 19!!!
6 P90X Sessions (for a total of 30) 3 Ė P90x and I just didnít work out this timeÖ
4 cardio sessions (for a total of 16) MET! done!
2 strength training sessions (for a total of 8) Done
1 fun workout (for a total of 4) 2 Iím counting dancing here
6 days of tracking (for a total of 24) MET! 28 days
July wasnít all that bad though I didnít lose like crazy.
Did I just type that?
I lost plenty. I lost slow and steady. I lost in a way that is healthy. And I am proud of what I did.
I upped my workout minutes and my movement by more than 600 minutes. My weight this morning was 180.4 meaning that I lost 6.4 pounds this month which is pretty much on par with my losses so far.
My big NSVs: Dancing at Zac Brown in a red sundress with bare arms, buying the boots I've been dreaming about for two years because they finally fit over my calves, fitting into a pair of size 8 jeans and buying a bikini (ok a few bikiniís!). I am now the lightest I have been in 19 years. Insane.
My time with phentermine is coming to an end so I will be transitioning off of it at the end of September. My doctor has suggested that I start taking a few days off a week just to get prepared for this transition and Iím on board with this idea. I am not sure if I will go back on it again after the required 2 months off. I think it just depends on where Iím at and my goals. I have now realized that the purpose of this drug is NOT to help you lose weight Ė it has a much more important role. It helps you reset your dysfunctional eating patterns and start to break the hold that emotional eating can have over you. It also helps you to start seeing portion sizes correctly. With that said, my goals are going to reflect these changes.
In August I am going to do the following each week:
500 Mins of Exercise (for a total of 2000)
4 Yoga classes (for a total of 16)
6 Brazil Butt Lift Sessions (for a total of 28)
4 cardio sessions (for a total of 16)
20 fidget sessions (commercial break fitness!)
3 Days a week off of Phentermine (for a total of 13)
7 days of tracking (for a total of 30)
Iím going to work hard to lose 8 pounds this month Ė although given my record of a slow and steady 6 pounds, Iíd be ok with that too. I know in the long run the 6 pounds is a much healthier loss.
I also have my eyes on a big number: 164.4. Yeah thatís a random number. While I know that this isnít going to happen this month, itís my next big goal. Itís the weight where I have officially lost 50 pounds and itís the weight where I officially weigh less than the weight I put on my driverís license. Who was I kidding when I filled that out?!?
One last thing. My friend called me out the other day because I was whining about how little I have lost. She in no uncertain terms told me I was full of it and said that she had known me long enough to know I had lost a lot of weight. My highest weight was in the 240ís. Iím guessing I got to about 249. That means in the last three years I have lost about 68 pounds. Holy crap! (as an aside, this totally fits with the set point theory tooÖ have to lose slowly, maintain for a while and then try to lose again. Makes sense now.)
I need to stop minimizing my accomplishments. I need to stop belittling my achievements. I need to learn to take compliments. And I need to learn to be proud.
And keep moving forward. Slow and steady. Slow and steady.
Phew that was too long!
Happy first day of August! And happy Sparking!