Advertisement -- Learn more about ads on this site.


    ENDORA2011   519
SparkPoints
500-999 SparkPoints
 
 
August 1st- 40 pounds down- and loosing the scale for a while

Wednesday, August 01, 2012

I have driven myself insane with weighing and weighing my body. I have lost the first 40 pounds in 4 months but it was a strange struggle; thanks to my continual jumping on and off the scale. I even made a deal with myself that I wouldn't; but I lied. Ugh!!!!!! I can't do this to myself from here forward. I will write down everything I eat, just to make sure that I am keeping it healthy. I know that I am but I am very insecure at this point and questioning every step I take.......I need to stop!!! Stop Brenda!!!!!!!!! Stop!!!!!!!!!!! So, I am putting my scale away and keeping track of all my food. Since I am now in the habbit of exercising, I'm not really worried about that because I feel weird when I don't exercise; so I am kind of addicted to that.....which is good........but I can't drive myself crazy anymore........so, I've decided that the scale will no longer weigh.."if I am good enough" or "if I'm doing good enough"...........damn it! I'm doing good!.............This weight/food/scale issue........ugh!!! It can be tough............as most of us know...................Relax Brenda........................
..just keep track of your food..........exercise........
..and enjoy feeling healthy...............RELAX and don't make things so hard on yourself....................Si
gned: "me"
SHARE
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:


Be the First to Add Your Comment to the Blog Post


Log in to post a comment.