Looking backward and looking forward.
Wednesday, August 01, 2012
As I head in to yet another school year, I'm beginning to see the rest of my life take shape. It's August now and school begins soon. Usually I spend the last few weeks before school buying school supplies and getting prepared for everything to start up again. This year I'm really thinking about what this school year means to me and how much it affects the rest of my life. This year marks the end of one year of my college journey. It feels really strange to already be graduating from Lehigh Carbon Community College in May. Then next begins the fun stuff. Transferring out, and going to medical school to become a pediatrician. As it gets closer I realize how scary it really is. Soon I will really be out in the real world.
I just keep sitting and thinking about all of the big things that have happened over the past 5 years. I got my first job, at McDonalds. It's a job I still have. I've had a falling out with a lot of people, and I've realized what I really want from my lfie. I've graduated from high school and started college. This year I even realized my full potential which isn't easy for anyone. On March 26, 2012, we lost Abby, who was so much more than a cat. She was a forever friend and I still think about her a lot. It still makes me sad to think about her sometimes, but I would like to believe that she is up in animal heaven right now acting like her old weird self. Her loss will forever leave a hole in my heart. Recently, we got two new cats. Their names are Cashious and Cameron. They're funny and absolutely adorable but they can never replace Abby.
As I've finally come to terms with the losses of 2012, I really realize that life is what you make it. You can hate your life and everything about it, but at the end of the day, it is up to you to fix it. As a wise person once said, "if you do what you've always done, you'll get what you've always gotten." So I've decided that for once, this is my time. It's up to me to make my life everything it should be. I've given up so many times when I should have been buiding myself up. It's a strong realization for me that no one has it easy and everyone needs to work for what they have, no matter how it looks. So this time, I really am going to be the best I can be. Here's looking forward to graduation, new horizons, bigger and better things, and having my house of cards being held together with superglue rather than air. The attached pictures are of Abby and Cashious/Cameron.