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Long time no blog.....

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Yes I have been missing in action and I know that.. I always find that when I blog I am getting something off my chest.. and there has been a lot of holding me back only because I feel that I have nothing to give.. or say that is motivating,.. I have been feeling less then motivating these past few weeks and I am not sure what it is,
I just feel like that I am not centered or focused I mean I seem do do ok all day long with my program and but then something will come across my way and I cave.. it seems to be happening every day and I mean day after day it seems like I cannot get 2 or 3 or even 4 days of good clean eating I start out breakfast, lunch and dinner good. but night time comes and I am not I pick at this or pick at that. the next day is followed by work out hard and drinking a ton of water. then night comes.. and it is that way again I fear the worst.. a huge binge.. a binge so big that It will shake the very core of me and the next day will not be started a work out or a clean slate but a day of remorse and starvation then followed by more binging and before you know I am back to where I could care less that I ride my bike go for a walk, do a 5k or even g9 to the gym again.. then at night I will be back on the couch with a bag of chips and then an 1/2 gallon of ice cream.. all to keep eating and eating and eating. OMG I do not want this.. I feel this could happen in one heart beat.. and I am not going to let it happen, I need to get serious I need to stop the picking.. stop the being a "loose" woman with food.
so I need to take action and I can say I need help and do not know what to do..
I really do not know how I can stop this madness and get back on track.
but I can say I am willing and I want to try.
I am going to make August the month where I get back with the program
and I am going to blog. because it does help in stead of keeping it bottled up in side of me..
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    keep up the good work! I know what you mean about being missing in action, losing focus.... we just jump back on the trail and keep going!!

    2053 days ago
    emoticon Anita. Praying that you will get back on the wagon fast. Have fruit and yogurt at night and see how that works. I have that and it helps fill me up.
    2060 days ago
    Hang in there Anita. I gave away all my old "fat" clothes. But, I did save my biggest pair of jeans that I wore. I try those on and begin to feel proud all over again of what I am able to do. You are well equipped and able to do what you dream.....go get it!! emoticon
    2061 days ago
    Hey, You can do this. I will be there to support you. I had a whole month of that in June. However, something just clicked and God has really come through for me. It will click for you, too. Just keep trying and DO NOT GIVE UP!

    So, We are going to do this together! emoticon
    2061 days ago
    MsAnita, i know right where you are. i think we all probably do. some times it just seems like it would be so easy to never go out there and ride or run or walk again.

    a hands on thing that i like to do when i feel that way, i go find something that weighs about as many pounds as i have lost. one of my favorite on hand things is a bag of feed for the horse or cats. that is between 36 and 50 pounds. i have lost 45. pick that sucker up and carry it around for a while. NOT fun! i NEVER want to have that weight back for good. not even a little bit of it. so, i challenge you to find something that weighs however much you have lost and give it a try. everytime you want to eat, go pick it up. keep it in the kitchen next to your favorite "naughty snack".
    2061 days ago
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